2009

Hey Everyone,



There is one more day left in 2009. So I believe its time for a blog that reflects this year.



First, however, I'd like to say, that 2009 has been pretty crazy. It's been filled with lots of trials and lots of first experiences. But thats what's made it such an amazing year. =). God has blessed me with so many amazing blessings in all forms. :). So, here is my synopsis of the 2009 year.

Blessings in the form of Praise

• January 1 - Brought in the new year with my friends in the best way possible, bringing prasie to my Heavenly Father in worship and fellowship.
• January 6th- I started the Disney College Program. Therefore, I moved out on my own to Anaheim, CA.
• Learning how to deal with my faith away from home, learning more about Christ from an individual perspective.
• Meeting whole new friends. =)
• Being a cast member at the Happiest Place on Earth. A steady job, at a place I love.
• Designing my first period show.
• Learning more about who I am as an individual and spiritually

This year had many blessings. But it had much pain as well. But the thing I've come to realize is how thankful I am for all the blessings and the trials. Because trials are blessings too. :)

Trials

• Living on my own
• Relationships
• Losing friends
• Being a cast member at the Happiest Place on Earth.
• Faith on my own.
• Finding who I am

So you know I've realized blessings and trials are usually one in the same. And I am thankful for this year. Although it was filled with many hardships, I learned so much through them, and even more about God's love and grace. So for that I am thankful. I can't wait to see what this next year brings. In closing, here is one of the biggest lessons I've learned. I've always struggled with relationships. This year was probably the biggest learning year for relationships then I've ever had. For the longest time I've wanted a relationship, or thought that I wanted a relationship so bad, but then when the opportunity arises for one, I found that the wrong relationship isn't worth it. Its hard to explain, but I fought my feelings and although I still got hurt, I learned so much. And for that I am so thankful. :) And although, I'm still learning, I feel alot better about these trials when I remember God's goodness, and His grace. But heres til an even better 2010. Peace and love to you all. And God Bless. <3

Where I Am

Hello everyone,

I know it's been a while. I hope to start getting better at blogging semi-regularly again. So today, I write about my life currently. However untheological this quote may be, it is true that Life is a climb. And it probably is the best reflection of my life in this moment.

But I must start at Thanksgiving week first. Over my time in orange country for work over Thanksgiving holiday, God showed me how much I need Him. Now, of course this isn't new news. But He showed me that I've been trusting the people and things of this world to make me happy. When in reality, nothing of this world can cause or bring happiness. For living of this world actually causes the opposite. But I was enjoying it. Sadly, but it's true. But He called me back. He made me realize that I need more discipline in my life. That I can't do anything without Him.

So fast forward to last Saturday night. We had the cross-generational Christmas party. I was still having a non-Christ-Centered view. I didn't want to go. But I went, and through the night of Christ-Centered worship and fellowship, I came to the realization that I really did need to repair my lifestyle that I've been in for a couple months.

Therefore, when I got home, I made the decision to not go on Facebook for a week. And to delete my twitter account. Although, small as they may be, I know that I spend too much time idley on them both. I follow these celebrities, to see what's going on in their lives, when I shouldnt' even care. And I need to cut back on the media intake that I let into my mind. So, this was that first step. And I realized that I waste so much time on facebook, trying to remain friends with people who may not care if I didn't initiate contact. So, I decided to take a break.

Now, It's hard to say what the long term effects will be. But I know that I need more discipline in my life. Especially if i want to serve as a believer in L.A. I can't rely on my own strengths or willpower to stay strong and focused on Christ without Relying on He who is the reason for which I have life, and for my salvation. So although it will be a long time coming, and may never happen, I pray I can continue to trust in the One who died for me. And not let this world tempt me, with its temporal treasures any longer.

Undeserving but Thankful

So in young adult group on Tuesday nights we are currently going through the book of Esther. I've been enjoying it alot. Even though we haven't yet gotten to far into the study yet, to the bulk of who Esther was and what she did. I still am enjoying this study because it helps me remember the faith that Esther had and the trust she placed in our LORD. For that is something that I am constantly struggling with.

Lately, I've been so blinded by my trials and been letting them create negativity in my life, that I've almost (though never completely) forgotten Whom it is I serve and Love. Who it is that died for me. And with going through Esther and "Living the Cross Centered Life" in small groups, this has been renewed in my thought process. It's been causing me to ask myself daily "who is God" "Who is Man?" and "Who is Christ?" I know this is something I need to remember daily. And I know that God is good, and if I remember that, these trials will be a blessing and not a curse.

The main point of this blog is to say that I was once again broken almost to the point of tears this evening when I realized how silly I've been. Who am I to deserve such mercy from God's wrath? And who am I to think that what was done at calvery was something that happened two thousand years ago? This song, "Jesus Thank You" broke me and the Lord called me back. And all I can say is just that... Jesus Thank You. Thank you.

Words and music by Pat Sczebel

As recorded on Worship God LiveLyrics

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The mystery of the cross I cannot comprehend

The agonies of Calvary

You the perfect Holy One,

crushed Your Son

Who drank the bitter cup reserved for me

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Your blood has washed away my sin

Jesus, thank You

The Father’s wrath completely satisfied

Jesus, thank You

Once Your enemy, now seated at Your table

Jesus, thank You

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By Your perfect sacrifice

I’ve been brought near

Your enemy

You’ve made Your friend

Pouring out the riches of Your glorious grace

Your mercy and Your kindness know no end

Lover of my soul

I want to live for You

I wrote this song. To help me get across some of what I've been feeling. Hope you like it. :D

I'm done waiting for you tonight
To text me back and say goodnight
Cuz I know, things just aren't the same
Yes I see now that the rain,
Has overshadowed our love
Drowned out the sun.
But I know it will rise again
Love will ascend

~Chorus~
So I'll wait for that day
Where the waves wash away
The feelings of sadness
That came when you went away.
Bringing with them a love renewed
Something lasting. Something true.
So for that I will wait.
No longer will I stay in this state.
~
lost too much time in tears of you,
And no longer will I be blue.
But please oh please listen here
Know that I still hold you near
deep within my heart
Even though apart
But I will rise above the clouds
And scream aloud

~chorus~

So I get up off the floor
Dry thee tears
From my eyes
And Say goodbye to my fears

Rinse the makeup off my face
I'm going to feel beautiful today.
Will not let you hold me down Anymore.
Ill feel contentment.
Time to soar.

Life...

So, recently I've lost a really good friend. I know I need to move on, but it's hard because I don't take losing friends well at all. This person left (well stopped talking to me abrubtly) and I was really hurt by it. He didn't even give a reason. I know I need to be okay with that. I know that God has a plan for everything, but it definetly still hurts. Especially learning that someone you thought you knew, you didn't know at all. I forgive this person, but I'm still hurting. I miss this person regardless, I just need to have the strength to move on. Anyway, that's how I've been feeling lately.

Friend, if you ever read this, I miss you and care for you deeply. I hope that the Lord blesses you and hope to maybe see you again someday. I thank the Lord for you, no matter how much pain you've caused. Please forgive me if I overstepped or did anything wrong. <3

'Unashamed' by starfield

I have not much
To offer You.
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth.

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose words secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend.
Your mercy sets me free.

And I know I am weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of your mercy
I stand here unashamed.

I can explain
The kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heaven's heights
And greet me face to face.

Here I am at your feet
In my brokenness complete.

Long time coming..

Hey everyone (ok, the very few people who read this) I'm sorry it's been so long. but having a crappy computer was the main reason. So here it is, one of many blogs I'm going to post in the next few days(hopefully). Here it goes...

First, I'm back in Fresno now. (Yes, it is sad, but good.) It's good to be home, but hard to be away from L.A. I spent 8 months on my own; in a large city, working an average of 40 hours per a week at the Happiest Place on Earth. And after about 6 months, I realized how accustomed I had become to living on my own. I got used to it, persay. So I think thats why leaving was hard. Because, although I was home again, home has changed, my life has changed. My friends have changed. Now, I'm not saying this is a bad thing. It's a blessing in fact; however, it makes the transition harder, because I'm having to get used to change again.

However, the good thing about being home, is that I'm able to be more involved in the church again. If you had talked to me, prior to leaving to L.A., you'd have heard me say how I felt the LORD calling me to L.A. for missions. However, you also would have heard me say how I was more scared to go to L.A. then I was for going overseas. (I realized this even after going overseas last summer) This was because, if you remember, I felt that although many populations of the Earth are unreached with the gospel, Hollywood is different because they know, or have most likely heard the gospel, but they just don't care. So when one is going to L.A. They are going somewhere where falling away, falling in to sin is at higher risk. I know it's easy for me to say that dying for my faith seems easier. And I know if I were in that situation, I would probably change my view. But let me tell you this...

Going overseas, we as Americans are leaving are comfort zones. And although we may be traveling to a country where spreading the gospel is illegal, and can hence be a death sentence, when you go on a trip out there, you feel God's presence. You're there to spread the gospel. And in a way, despite the risk, it's easier to draw nearer to God. At least in my opinion. However, Hollywood is not that way. Hollywood is in my comfort zone, so it's easy to be consumed in your own life, and not look to God as much as you should. (I know this from experience, I'm not proud of it, but it's the truth.) In L.A. you can lose control easy if you're not careful. Now, my faith is strong enough to resist certain sins, what I mean to say is, I've lived with a certain form of morals for 21 years, so some aspects of my lifestyle and choices aren't going to change. But I've seen how I can still be led astray. Being worldly and not Godly. These are the reasons I was more scared to go to L.A. then I am of going overseas. Why am I telling you this?

I failed.

I wasn't the child that I should have been. Far from it even. I wasn't the light I could have been. Yes, when it came to moral issues I stood my ground. But in order to be a witness for the LORD in L.A. the 'usual' doesn't cut it. I'll admit I was too scared to fully express the faith I have. Sharing with the co-workers I had. And I know I didn't care about them (well about their souls) enough. I failed. Not just in in being a light, but in my own walk with the Creator of all. If I had been in the Word more, and gone to church more regularly, I would not have gotten into the same situations and would have been able to deal better. But I let the sin and drama consume me, and take over my life. I failed. But I realized, that although I failed, I became much stronger too. He called me back. I realized how even when I'm struggling, He is there. The LORD died for me, and even when I fall, He is there to break me, and humble me. I grew because I had to live my faith out almost completely alone (meaning without other believers, because none are alone who have Christ) , for the first time in my life, made me realize more about my faith, and the God I love and want to serve with my life. Although I wasn't ever truly alone, not being in the Word, I felt more alone then ever. (Again, not something I am proud of) That's something I never want to take lightly again.

So...that is why me being home is a good thing. I can get a better grip on my faith, and come near to He who died for me...In preparation to go back 'out into the world and preach the good news'. Because if I am not looking to the One whom I serve with my life, and I'm not serving him with my life, it's all in vain. So, in short, I still feel called to Hollywood after I graduate. But that's not where I'm meant to be at this moment. In the book "God Called A Girl" by Shannon Kubiak, that I recently read she stated,

"Sometimes he prevents us from being where we want to be so we can end up where we are supposed to be."

I WANT to be in L.A. But at this point in my life, that is not where I am supposed to be. I NEED to be right here. In my journal I wrote this,

"He knows I was led astray. Therefore, where I want to be probably isn't where I'm supposed to be...now. I need to find comfort in knowing that in my confusion God is doing work. In the midst of the fog He is working".

I don't think it can be any clearer. So instead of worrying and being sad about being home, I need to realize the PURPOSE for why I am. And why I need to be. And how I'm supposed to live - praising Him who died for me at calvary. I need to

'lay aside every weight, and sin which so easily entangles, and run with endurance, the race that is set before me, fixing my eyes on HIm, the Author and perfector of my faith, who for the JOY set before him, endured the cross, scorning the shame, and is seated at the right hand of God."

I pray that I can fall on my knees in praise to Him. And never forget His work at calvary.

Complicated...(Unsaved posted blog I found)

So you know those days where you find yourself wanting something or wishing things were different?!?! Well I've been known to have those days. And God has his ways of showing us things in the midst of those times. Recently God has been showing me that the things we wish for that we think we want, may not really be what he plans.



I've been going through some rough times. And had to do one of the hardest thing I've ever had to do. And it turns out that although I thought that talking to this person would be the hardest thing I'd ever have to do. What's followed has been way harder. Its a learning experience. And I've found that although I thought I wanted a relationship so bad. And then when a situation arises I've found myself having to deal with realizing that God works in amazing ways. (The one thing I thought I wanted), he's shown me, that what I think I want, might not be what is. I don't know how to explain it but it's like, hes had this happen, as if saying "you want a relationship? Ok, well lets see how you deal with the possibility of one?" So when it comes to the possibility of it, I've found myself having to do the hard thing and realize that not any relationship is right. Funny how God works, isn't it?

Growing up...

So, I think lately I've been growing up a lot. And at the same time it's become so apparent how much more growing up I have to do. Last night I came to the realization that God is so good!!! Not that this is new news at all, but...it's always good to remember. I am sooo small and God is soo Big!!! It's overwhelming but in a good way.

Now for the trials portion. Last night I had a small meltdown. I realized how much I've fallen away since I've been here in LA. Maybe fallen away isn't the right words. But I interact with my friends here like I do with the ones I've known all my life. The ones who know who I really am in regards to my faith. Whereas these other friends just see who I am now. I know I need to work on this more. Work on being a light. Work on being a light for Jesus in this place. My usual means of doing this just can't cut it anymore. I've realized I may have to end some friendships, which is not something I've ever felt I had to do. I need to do more. So...yeah that's that.

Today started better. I was happy with just who Christ is. And work was easier, etc. But things can change so much. They can be great then turn to gray so fast. I don't understand it. I don't like it, but thats life. And when these things happen all I can do is turn to Him. And on my hands and knees I fall, into his arms. And I know it'll be okay, and even if its not, well that's okay too. Some things never fail. God is good, He is sovereign. He's in control. He is so many unchanging and unfailing things. So I lean upon Him when all else turns to black. If only I remembered that everyday. :) So here I am today. Am I happy, no. Am I sad, yes. But I still have hope in my Heavenly Father. That He is there, and He loves me. And everything...EVERYTHING is according to His plan for me. Even if I don't like it, or have problems with his timing. Which I struggle with constantly. But I guess that's one reason its called faith right? Faith in someone so holy, who's timing is perfect and who is in complete control, when it seems things are spiraling out of control. :) Thank you Lord for your amazing Grace, and mercy towards me, a sinner. And for loving me so fully, enough to send your son for me. Thank you Father, Spirit, Jesus...

DCP: Housing

I know you all want to know what my apartment looks like. So here's a blog all about my housing. So, I think it's pretty sweet. They're nice, fully furnished but cozy. Some would say they're pricey, but I don't think it's too bad. So here are the photos...

Here's mine and Bethany's room. (There are now two Jonas Brothers posters up.)

Here's our living room! (Which is still a work in progress, but now we have an Enchanted poster and a Disneyland Map on the walls)

This is mine and Bethany's bathroom. (And whoever may visit our apartment)

Our wonderful kitchen. We have lots of counter space, it's wonderful. (Well in the rare occasion when its not messy)

The other side of our kitchen. With our electric stove and microwave.

So, that's it. I know it's plain, and kind of boring, but I still like it. :)

Jonas Brothers: The 3D Concert Experience Premiere!

The El Capitan Theatre!
So...I went to my first Hollywood movie premiere!!! Finally!!! It was a long day. Me and Ana Paula got to the El Capitan theatre on Hollywood Boulevard at about 11:30. And to our dissappointment, there were already a ton of fans there. But no worries, we found spots in front of the "Guest check in" sign. Which we later would find out was where the celebs would be dropped off. (Well some of them :( )

We then got to wait for 5.5 hours till celebs started to arrive. However, it was still pretty fun! We actually saw Justin Long driving in front of us, stopped at the stop light! He waved to us!!!

Then, the moment came. 5:00 came around. It was finally time for the celebs to start arriving. Most of them got dropped off at the purple carpet. So we didn't see any of the big artists. :( However, we got to see Allyson Stoner. I got her autograph! We also saw Megan from Camp Rock, Chelsea Staub, Honor Society, Jordan Pruitt, Jason Dolly, and Brenda Song (she was a late arrival).

Megan from Camp Rock
Brenda Song
Honor Society

Allyson Stoner

Now, for the moment of truth. The Jonas Brothers arrived quite early. They drove past us. And Kevin rolled down the window and waved to us!!! I saw Nick next to him. But then they had moved on. They stopped at the purple carpet, and then Kevin stood up with the door open and waved to the fans!!! That was all we saw them. (Other than for two seconds when they stepped off the carpet for some reason. And we didn't know for sure if it was them) But that was the ONLY time I saw Joe, and I didn't even get to see his face! Just his back.. :( (But I'd know that hair anywhere!!!)

I know its hard to see, but Joe's there, and Kevin too (look for the hair)

Then that was it.

We were about to leave, but when we were leaving the new and undiscovered band Allstar was hanging out. We got to meet them, take some pics and get their autographs. That was cool! They were hott! Well Zach anyway...lol

Zach from Allstar!!! Hes hott!

So, although it turned out to be a disappointment, it was still fun. I'm here for 6 more months, so I'm sure they'll be other opportunites to meet them! At least I hope. Fingers crossed!!!

My Top 5

So, my two best friends both made top 5 lists...so here's my top 5 male celebrities!!!! (It was much easier then I thought it'd be.)

1. Joseph Adam Jonas

Yes, call me the stereotypical girl all you want. That I'm like every single teenage girl in America. I don't care. I love him. Why? He sings, dances, plays guitar, dresses amazing, is a Christian, wears a purity ring, has AMAZING hair and many other amazing things! Who cares if he breaks up with Taylor Swift over the telephone?!? Plus I love feeling like I'm in Jr. High again sometimes. :) And I love that in a world encompassed by sex, he and his brothers bring clean, wholesome music and lifestyles to the youth of the world!!! :)

• Keep rockin' it Joe!!!

2. Shia Labeouf

Well, you all find this to be no surprise I'm sure. But I am proud to say I've been a fan of Shia since he played the nerdy class clown Lewis in "Even Stevens", and the Mentally Retarded Eddie in "Tru Confessions", as well as Stanley Yelnats in the movie "Holes"Then you all fell in love with him later. But I have loved him and seen his potential since way before he was in Transformers and Disturbia. I know he'll continue to have me watching him in the future. Because he, in my opinion, is an amazing actor!!! And has made the transition from 'child star' to adult actor very well!

3. Robert Pattinson
Yep, I know, me and every girl in the world...again. I don't care. I mean three words: Dazzling, Vampire, British. He intrigues me with his British accent, and gorgeous hair. (even if he cut it all off). I think he's going to prove a successful career in Hollywood. Even if he doesn't, I'll watch Twilight so many times you wouldn't think it was possible!!! :) And if I get tired of that, I'll watch him die (beautifully) in Harry Potter over and over again! :)

4. Leonardo Dicaprio
I love Leo. Yes, I was one of those teeny-boppers who fell in love with him during Growing Pains. But he is no longer "just a pretty face". Leo is and always will be one of my favorite actors of all time! He picks amazing films from the Departed to Titanic (hey you know you love that movie) and does well in every role he plays. He is brilliant at dying over and over, in almost all the movies he's in, and does so looking as gorgeous as ever. But his movies always make me cry, and are sooo powerful. I love Leo!

5. Kirk Cameron

I didn't only fall in love with Leo on Growing Pains, but also Kirk Cameron. But since Growing Pains I have learned to love and respect him even more!!! He rose above the downfall that so many child stars fell into, and found the One who makes all things new, Jesus Christ!!! And his work that he does with The Way of The Master inspires me, and encourages me in so many ways! And I will always love his films. They always have a message to go with them, and inspire. Thanks Kirk!

Disney days with Home friends

So, I've been blessed over the course of the month to go to Disneyland many times. (Probably like 10 times, not kidding). But about two weeks into my time hear, I got to go to the park with Linell for her birthday! We got to act like little kids all day! It was stupendous! We went on Dumbo, and all the little kid rides!!! (Which might I ad are not 'kid' rides!!!) They are dark!!! It was not very busy that day, so we got to go on tons of rides. We even left the park at like 3 because we were content with how many rides we'd been on, and since it was free, we didn't care!

Then on Friday, I was able to go to Disneyland with the Micus! It was so fun, and such a blessing to have them in town. It made me happy to have something of home here! The day began kind of wet, because it was poaring down rain. But the rain ceased for most of the afternoon, only coming down again right before we left the park. But the weather made for a slow day at the park, with very short lines!!! We were there for a long time, the kids had quite a bit of energy. But I'm so glad I got to go with them and help them get the whole family in for a reasonable price!!! :) Heres some pics from that Amazing Day!

The longest line of the day was to meet the princesses!!!

It's tough to be a bug!!























It was Nay Nay's Birthday! (She turned 3) Toy Story Mania

When times get hard

So. I thought I'd update you all on what's going on in my life at Disneyland, or spiritually. Everything. (I'll try to keep it short, but with me, who knows if that'll happen.) So here it is. Work's been going pretty well. It's been getting way less stressful, as I get more comfortable driving and interacting with the guests. So work, is getting very enjoyable now that I know what I'm doing more and more each day.

So, before I go into the next part, I feel that it's important for me to add a scripture that relates to what I'm going through, and what helps me when times are hard. I go to this passage often, and have even committed it to memory. So here it is...

Hebrews 12:1-2 "Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God."

So...I have had a week of weeks. You name it, it probably happened. So the first part of this week went rather splendid. I met some new people. Got to know some others, talked to home friends. And my mom came out here on Tuesday and Wednesday to see me. We went shopping and then, since I got my blue card to get guests into the park for free, we went to the park for a few hours on Wednesday. My mom left that night, and I relaxed at home. Thursday at work, I was tired (from staying up to late), but the day was pretty good nonetheless.

Then came Friday. I had to begin work at 8:45. But after getting to the parking lot, when I went to delete my month's worth of texts, my phone decided to turn off, and not turn back on. So I had to call the att people and get everything figured out. And short story, they're sending me a new phone it should be here on Tuesday.

So, thankful that I had that behind me, I came to work bright and early, at 7 am on Saturday morning. The day went well. I had G.C. Which meant, a whole day of interacting with guests in the line. No DRIVING!!! I was excited. The weather was hot, but the work was not bad. But, on my way out of the parking lot. My car got backed into. YEP. Fun. Luckily, my car isn't hurt too badly, but I can't say the same for hers. So that was stressful.

I decided to burn off some steam by going to the park with Kelsey. We waited in line for Space Mountain for 45 minutes. And then came home.

And then today. It was good. I had a great day at work, other than having to be at work at 7:30, and showing up early, because I thought I worked at 7. But today was good. I read James 2 and 3. And it was what I needed yet again. I'm hoping to practice the art of silence. Yes, it will be difficult, since I talk a lot. But I know I need to watch my tongue. So I'm praying that God can help give me the discipline I need to achieve being "slow to speak". I love you all and miss you dearly! Best wishes and happy day to you all!

Kids are wonderful

First of all, if I didn't think kids were wonderful, I would have problems working at Disneyland. Because, well...there's lots of kids. They are all sooo cute. I could eat them up. All the little girls dressed up in their disney princess dresses for their birthday (or just for fun), and their tennis shoes for walking all day. And the little boys who are dressed like pirates, heck even the parents and big sibling dress in their disney apparel. It's grand, it's things like this that help me realize I really do work at the happiest place on Earth!!!

Secondly, I had to talk about my last day in Fresno. We all went and ate White Chili at the Micu's house, and I got to hang out with the kids one last time. Oh how I love Sarah, Josh, Jonathan, Rebecca, Hannah, Naomi and Jael. And oh how I miss them. I mean how can you not love them? Here's nay-nay in her pretty princess dress, which I had to take a picture of, due to the fact that I was headed to Disneyland. So here it is.

Heres another pic from that wonderful last day...

By Faith...

So, today I was reading Hebrews 11. And wow, I find it amazing how one always seems to read a passage that one needs to read at that specific moment. Now don't think that I mean to say that every passage isn't good to read, because they are. But I love how what one reads on a given day always relates directly to what one is struggling with, or going through on that given day. And today, I needed to read Hebrews 11.

So like I said, I was reading Hebrews 11, which talks all about how all these men and women did specific things "by faith". How "by faith" Noah when warned about things not yet seen built an ark in holy fear, to save his family. The chapter continues on talking about Abraham and Sarah, Issac, Jacob, Joseph, Moses and even Rahab.

Well, this chapter got me to thinking about how little I do "by faith" or, how much I take my faith for granted. Here in America as a believer, it's so easy to just blend in. Living in a way that doesn't cross the line of immorality, but coming as close to crossing that line as possible. Here we can be a Christian without living a life of intention, and without having to face persecution. Yet all over the world other believers face daily persecution for their faith, yet they serve the Lord despite those circumstances. So this passage made me realize how I need to live "by faith" more. That I need to sieze the opportunities and freedoms I have more. My prayer is that I can live a life intentional and "by faith". Instead of taking what I have for granted everyday in fear of persecution.

DCP-Nemo:Solo Day #1:God help me!

Well, so yesterday I had my first solo day. It started off pretty well. I jumped in the sub to drive my required 3 cycles. And it went great! I stayed on profile (speed) the entire ride, and parked almost perfectly. Then, I worked on hatches for a few minutes then it was time for my break.

Then after break it all went bad. I got back on the sub for another 3 cycles. But, it was on a sub I hadn't driven before, and well it turns out it's one of the fast ones. So I was a bit faster then I was supposed to be all throughout the ride, and I overshot or undershot my parking everytime.

Then the day finally ended, after 3 more bad cycles. But, then I realized I'd lost my ID card for the park, which I need to get into work. And my debit card. It wasn't a good day.

But I was thankful later, because I had gone to deposit my paycheck early that day, but couldn't because I forgot my debit card. And I'd transfered money to my savings from my checking for rent. So, I didn't have much on my card anyway! I had to thank the Lord for that! He was looking over the situation all along. :) He is so good! So despite my bad day, I tried not to forget that He is good, and that I need to trust him fully!!! And despite my bad day, he drew me closer to Him. I praise Him for that!

DCP Week #1: Training and Day Number 1

So everyone, I thought I'd post an update on my Disney Adventure. I've been meaning to, but haven't gotten around to it. Sorry. So here it is...

So I started training last Friday. This first day was all my Guest Interaction training. Here I learned how to put the SERVICE model into effect, and got to pass out the special Celebrating buttons available for cast members to pass out to guests. I also did some pin trading.

Day 1 - started at 6 am in the morning on Saturday. This was my first day of training on Ride Operations. I learned the ins and outs of the attraction. I got to see the backstage stuff that makes the ride what it is. I learned the many different roles that make up the Finding Nemo team.

Day 2- Driving. Yep I had to learn how to drive the submarines! Yikes! This was so scary!!! And I had to work at 5 am today, so I was a little on the tired side. I was so nervous. But it's not too hard. I spent a lot of the day driving, and learned how to work the hatches. (The entrance and exits for the subs). It was fun, but a long day. However, since I had to go into work at 5 am, I got off at 1:30. And since it was a weekend day, the park closed at 11. So me and my friend Katie went to the park for a couple hours, and went on like 4 rides! It was very nice to finally be able to go to the park!!!

Day 3- More Driving. Yep I drove most of the day today, and had to park (to unload and load) all by myself. It's quite difficult. But my guests still seemed to enjoy the show. Which is all good!

Day 4- This was the day of my P.A (Performance Assessment). So I spent 6 hours with my trainer Millie reviewing everything I learned the past 3 days. The last two hours I had my assessment with another trainer. It went pretty good. I PASSED!!! But parking was still a bit bad. But I am now an official Nemo Ride Operator!! Yay!

Wednesday- I was off! So I went to Disneyland with the roomies! We got a late start, because there was no hurry since we can go for free, and anytime we want. We took a moment to take this picture

So I love this picture!!! From left to right here's how it goes! Me, Mickey, Cassidy(Utah doing Retail), Kelsie(Arizona doing Food and Beverage), Pluto, and Bethany(Hawaii doing Restaurant Busser). We had fun, and yay for no lines!!! So that was Wednesday! Here's a few more of those pictures!

Toy Story Mania! The Best ride ever!!!

Hollywood Backlot in California Adventure

I'm now an official Disneyland Cast Member!!!!

So...today was my first official (paid) day as a Disneyland Resort Cast Member. But before I go into what happened today, I should probably update you all on the recent happenings. So let's rewind to yesterday....

Yesterday was our first day of orientation stuff, we were really only at the Education Center for about 3 hours. So we spent the rest of the day back here at our apartment. Later in the day, me and my roomate Cassidy decided to go get some much needed shopping done, so we went to Target and bought a few things, where I then lost my phone. Luckily...the guy who found it answered my phone when we called it, and was still in Target, so I got my phone back. Then we went and a bought a few quick things at Vons. While we were in Vons, we got a phonecall from casting saying we needed to come to the office that "we were on the list". So on top of driving in anaheim for my first time, losing my phone, and having to buy new shoes (that I only wore today, and are too small for my feet), I was on "the list". Well long story short...I was switched from doing Entertainment Costuming, to doing Attractions. It was a bit of a bummer, but I'm still excited and happy to be here, so it's all good!

So fast forward back to today...Today was our first day as a Cast Member for Disneyland Resort! EEE!!! Which it was refreshing to know we were getting paid today, since we had to sit in a auditorium from roughly 8-4 going through presentations (orientation stuff). But we did get a tour of the park. That was pretty fun (and exciting since I hadn't been inside Disneyland for two years!!!) So our day ended with us getting our name tags (btw if you come, mine will say Christine and not Katie) which is going to take some serious getting used to! haha. So we then decided we wanted to go to Disneyland for the first time for the rest of the day. However, I would soon learn that I wouldn't be able to enter the park until I get my actual ID (I was one out of a small group of people, who didn't get mine). This was a bit of a bummer, but I know I have time to go again! haha...So I had to take the bus home, since my roomies got in. It was a little sad, but it's okay, I'll go soon enough! But I have training tomorrow, where I'll get my costume and stuff, so I'll update you soon on how training goes! But I have training before dawn this weekend, so that should be fun. Haha

Love you all! Talk to you soon!

Goodbyes the hardest word...

I keep hoping that as the years pass, and the older I get, that goodbyes will get easier. But everytime it comes time to say goodbye again, it's just as hard if not harder than it was before. And it hurts to know that not only is it goodbye, but that every year older we get, the more goodbyes will come. We all grow apart, and we all have to move on with our lives. So every goodbye is hard. If this doesn't make any sense, it's probably because of the tears that are flowing from my eyes as I type this. Tonight is one of the nights I'm talking about. I'm excited about moving to L.A., yet sad to leave home and my friends. However, I know I can find hope in Heaven when there will be no more goodbyes, and even if there were it wouldn't matter, because I'll be with my Savior, praising him forever!

So you know how I've been waiting for it to sink in that I'm leaving, well, unfotunately now it has. Now that I've said my goodbyes to the people I love the most, and my bags are all packed, it's finally hit that I'm leaving...tomorrow, for 8 months. Who knows what will happen while I'm gone? So much could happen! To all of my friends, I love you so much, and I'll miss you terribly! It breaks my heart to have to say these words, but I want you all to know them. I'll keep in touch! And I'll be posting updates here hopefully weekly, or as much as possible!!! Peace and Love

God Bless
~Katie~

Sweetly Broken

Today in young adult group at church, we sang the song "Sweetly Broken" by Jeremy Riddle. This song is so good, and the words are so good, the message and the glory of the cross! So I wanted to share this song with you all!

To the cross I look,

to the cross I cling

Of it's suffering I do drink

Of it's work I do sing

For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed

Showed that God is love

And God is just

Chorus:At the cross You beckon me

You draw me gently to my knees, and I am

Lost for words, so lost in love,

I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

What a priceless gift, undeserved life

Have I been given

Through Christ crucified

You’ve called me out of death

You’ve called me into life

And I was under Your wrath

Now through the cross I’m reconciled

Chorus:

In awe of the cross I must confess

How wondrous Your redeeming love and

How great is Your faithfulness(2x’s)

Chorus:

Quick to forget...

Last night when I was journaling in my prayer journal, I stumbled across one that I'd written down towards the end of our nonamestan trip. I wrote it on the last Thursday we were overseas, 5 days after missing our flight. So I was ready to go home, and on top of the anxiety to be home I accidentally had deleted my photos from the entire trip. We're talking hundreds of photos here!!! (which I managed to get back thanks to my neighbor's retrevial software). But at the time I was really upset about it, anyone who was on the team could tell you that. Anyway this entry read as follows...

"Please forgive me for remaining to be selfish this week. I've had a very sour attitude about being here this week. And I'm so sorry for that. Lord, also please forgive me for valuing my posessions of my pictures over this trip. I shouldn't be worried about having recorded memories of this trip, all that should matter is this trip itself (and you)."

When I read these words last night, I couldn't believe that I'd written that; but the harder part was realizing how all throughout the trip I had been learning how much I needed to realize the aspects in my life where I idolized other things/people more than my Heavenly Father, who deserves all glory. But what hurt even more was how quickly I forgot this lesson, and returned to my old (worldly) habits and ways. I let what I didn't want to happen, happen. So this is a reminder for when one strays away from an Amazing God, who provides for us, despite our sinful natures.