Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Undeserving but Thankful

So in young adult group on Tuesday nights we are currently going through the book of Esther. I've been enjoying it alot. Even though we haven't yet gotten to far into the study yet, to the bulk of who Esther was and what she did. I still am enjoying this study because it helps me remember the faith that Esther had and the trust she placed in our LORD. For that is something that I am constantly struggling with.

Lately, I've been so blinded by my trials and been letting them create negativity in my life, that I've almost (though never completely) forgotten Whom it is I serve and Love. Who it is that died for me. And with going through Esther and "Living the Cross Centered Life" in small groups, this has been renewed in my thought process. It's been causing me to ask myself daily "who is God" "Who is Man?" and "Who is Christ?" I know this is something I need to remember daily. And I know that God is good, and if I remember that, these trials will be a blessing and not a curse.

The main point of this blog is to say that I was once again broken almost to the point of tears this evening when I realized how silly I've been. Who am I to deserve such mercy from God's wrath? And who am I to think that what was done at calvery was something that happened two thousand years ago? This song, "Jesus Thank You" broke me and the Lord called me back. And all I can say is just that... Jesus Thank You. Thank you.

Words and music by Pat Sczebel
As recorded on Worship God LiveLyrics
The mystery of the cross I cannot comprehend
The agonies of Calvary
You the perfect Holy One,
crushed Your Son
Who drank the bitter cup reserved for me
Your blood has washed away my sin
Jesus, thank You
The Father’s wrath completely satisfied
Jesus, thank You
Once Your enemy, now seated at Your table
Jesus, thank You
By Your perfect sacrifice
I’ve been brought near
Your enemy
You’ve made Your friend
Pouring out the riches of Your glorious grace
Your mercy and Your kindness know no end
Lover of my soul
I want to live for You