Friday, May 28, 2010

New Journey: Part 3-"Why Hollywood?"

So I am finally here, sitting in the clubhouse at my new apt typing this blog that I have been wanting to write for a long time now. So many of you may be wondering, why am do I see Hollywood as my missions field? Well. To begin with, Hollywood is so Lost. Even though it may not be in the same way third world countries are it is lost regardless. The difference is that Hollywood has heard the gospel (or had the chance to in most cases) but they have chosen to not listen. They have chosen to continue living in sin, and making art that portrays this sin as "ok" or "good". After much prayer, and thought of what it means to be a missionary in Hollywood I have decided this is where the Lord is calling me. Hollywood needs passionate Christians who can shed some light on their projects. I cant find the right words, but that is the gist of it.

One thing I wanted to include in this blog was some of the encouragement and readings I read about Missions in Hollywood, from the believers who are already working their. The book that first got me started thinking about it, was "Beyond The Screen". It is written by believers who are already working in Hollywood, who wanted to encourage others who are passionate for film to come to Hollywood. They all stated one similar thing, how much Hollywood needs Christian filmmakers, not only to provide the world with a different perspective in their films, but as lights to a lost set of people, consisting of actors, designers, crews and even the world (as the work of Hollywood is shown worldwide). Not only did they say this, but they also emphasized the importance of motivation. That if I come in the hopes of fame, and publicity, my motives are wrong. This is true of course of anything, because if my motivation and my reason is due to a worldly reason, then it is not serving God. If Hollywood is my "idol" then my reasons for being there will be wrong. It is full of disappointments, but if grounded, can be used to serve the Lord. (So combine, this with what i said about being "scared" in the last blog, and you have my summary of why I want to be in Hollywood.) In addition to the scared blog however, I think being scared is good in the fact that it will remind me why I am here, and whom I am serving with my life. It would be too easy for my to fall into my comfort zone, which is my biggest fear. But I know that if I Trust Him and follow him, He will guide me through.

I will continue to read this book in the years to come, for I need to remember what it says, and be encouraged by people who are currently and preceded me in Hollywood. But the main reason for this blog was to comment and reflect on one article in particular, that I read recently, that helped greatly in this new journey in particular in my life. It was a new article, which encouraged me and reinstated in my mind why and what I want to do. It was published in Relevant Magazine, it's an interview with Zachary Levi (from television's show Chuck.) He is an outspoken Christian who is an actor. I recently discovered, he also spoke at a Christian filmmakers conference late last year. His words on dealing with frustrations in his career were

"The first advice that I would give is to really spend time in prayer to make sure that this is exactly what God wants you to be doing and not just something that you really feel like you should be doing. Many times I have come home from a really devastating audition, and I’d be really thoroughly depressed because it was a role that I really was hoping for. I realized how crucial having a walk with God was because I could turn around and say, “It didn’t happen, but obviously it wasn’t God’s will.” People who don’t have God in their lives only have themselves to blame. So they look back at the audition and they say, “I didn’t do a good enough job.” But so often it has nothing to do with how good you did in the audition; it has to do with the fact that you’re a brunette and they were looking for a blonde. So, to me, the most important factor in all of the rejection was that I had a walk with God. As far as being an actor is concerned, you have to have passion. If you’re not bringing the passion of the character into the room with you, you might as well not come into the room at all."

I think what he said so is so crucial to remember. And something I hope to not forget. So I know it encouraged me greatly. Another response in particular that caught my attention was in regards to the innocent characteristic that would be hard to maintian in Hollywood. Zachary stated "Overall, as a human beings its hard to maintain that innocence. Even now sometimes I’ll find myself in a situation, and I’ll think to myself—and not in a really negative way but—“I wonder if they know who I am.” And not like, “Don’t you know who I am?” like I’m this huge guy, but I wonder if they know if that I am this guy on this TV show, more out of curiosity than anything else. But the problem is that the curiosity, in an instant, can turn into conceitedness. To me that’s what makes putting on the full armor of God everyday so important. Even saying that right now I feel like such a hypocrite, because reading your Bible and really spending alone time in prayer with the Lord every day, I stumble in that"

It's encouraging to hear this from a believer who is already there, knowing that it is not just me that would be feeling this way, and worrying in this way. I hope I can remember this as well. And lastly, he talked about being a Christian in a very anti-Christian world. Of which he said "Absolutely. The atmosphere in Hollywood in general is very anti-conservative, very anti-Christian. The liberal segment of Hollywood, which is 80 percent of it if not more, they look at Christians as hypocrites that are false and fake. The tough part is that in many cases I can’t argue with them. My job on my set, I believe, is to first just love people and gain that trust with people where they know that I really do love them and care about their well-being, so that when they are running into problems, they will hopefully, at some point, come to me and ask me, “What is your peace all about? What is your comfort all about? Where do you get your love? Where do you get your talents? And I can turn to them and say without blinking, “Jesus Christ.” You can’t just come out there and say “Hey, I’m a Christian, and I’m gonna beat you into thinking the way that I do.” You can’t do that. It’s not about manipulation so much as it’s about getting in on someone’s life on the ground floor. So more than anything, that’s what I’m trying to do now. Just build relationships with everyone that I work with."

Lastly, this was so encouraging to me, because it made me realize that so much of ministry is through establishing relationships. And to remind me that I need to be on my guard daily, and thinking of the Lord, everyday. That it is not because of who I am, but of who Christ is. Anyway, this has turned quite long, but I hope you have gotten a better understanding of what it is the Lord has called me to do. If you have any questions, just shout them out, I'd love to talk about it more!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

New Journey: Part 2-Scared

Ok so I know I said yesterday that I would be explaining more of my reasons behind "Why Hollywood". But that is not what is on my mind tonight. Tonight is my last night at home. I am moving to Anaheim again tomorrow. I spent the night at my church young adult group's monthly potluck. And it was a great way to end my life in Fresno, but for the first time, it made me realize how much I will miss everyone. It made me realize what was once at the foremost of my mind, about moving to Hollywood is now a thought tonight. So what is this thought?

I am terrified.

Terrified of moving out on my own, indefinitely. Not just for an internship, not just for a job, but a life change, a relocation.
I am a graduate, who doesn't know if I will ever make it, but who knows that I need to trust in my Lord and Savior and His timing for everything.

I am terrified of having to live on my own, if that is what His plan for me is. Not like sad about it, just terrified. If that is what He wills, then I will follow and serve Him still.

I am scared.

Most of all, I am scared about temptations, of falling away from the Father I love with all I am and all I have. I will be in my comfort zone, and therefore, more dangerous than if I was not. I know it is where He wants me to be, but I'm scared of failing Him. I think it is a good thing, but I am not sure. I guess I am just more trying to Trust Him as I start this new journey in my life. I know trials will come, but I will trust in Him to guide me through them.

Next time, I will actually pst the "why hollywood" post. Cuz I have wanted to for a while now. Til next time, Katie <3

New Journey: Part 1-Moving forward

Hey everyone, I have been meaning to write this blog for a while now, and being that I have only one more full day left in Fresno, I thought, what better time then this to write this blog. I have said before, what I want (what God is calling me) to do-work in Los Angeles as a Christian. Before I go on i must provide some backstory.

The idea of being a missionary in Hollywood, was always in the back of my mind, but I never really thought it was an option. But after reading the book "Behind the Screen" (which I found hidden in the shelves at Berean bookstore) this idea of working in Hollywood as a missionary became more in the front of my mind. This book, written by Christian professionals in the film/television industry, encouraged me to think about doing the same thing. Christians are often like "Hollywood, run away". Many Christians view Hollywood as the center of sin. Not that this is not true, but sin is everywhere we go, and describes everything we are: but running away is not the answer. Hollywood NEEDS people like us, who serve the LORD, to be a voice to the nation and the group of people in our world who are so apt to shun Hollywood because of its practices. It's a lost place. So as I continued reading the words these men and women wrote, about, how the need for Christians in Hollywood is important and encouraging those with the passion for film and television to come to HOllywood, I knew i needed to start praying and considering this option.

Fast forward to the Spring of 2007. I had read this book a couple times, and the opportunity to go on an overseas mission trip with my church was given to me. After much prayer and the outcome of other opportunities, I realized God had called me to go on this trip. (He shut the doors to other decisions, hence opening the missions door.) I prayed that He would show me what He wanted me to see and learn what He'd have me learn when I was overseas. I prayed that he would give me an open heart and mind to whatever He chose to happen and whatever He chose to teach me. Now, I can't go into detail of everything I learned, another blog perhaps, but in a gist, through this trip I realized that although this trip taught me alot and helped me learn about missions worldwide, this was not where the Lord was calling me. Through this trip I learned that the idea of missions in Hollywood, was where the Lord wants me to be.

Now, it is May 2010. Almost two years have passed since my trip, and I have graduated from college with a Bachelor's Degree in Theatre Arts:Design/Technology with and emhasis in Costume Design. And I am moving back to Orange County on Wednesday. I know where I am headed, I just need to remember to keep the Lord as my focus. As my reason for living. So I hope you all would pray that I can be proactive in finding a church and getting plugged in to a fellowship immediately, because that was one of the problems I had last time I lived down there. And that was not as permanent as this decision is. So finding a church will be of utter importance and priority. As for where I want to go, I have an idea, but the Lord may have a completely different will, and I pray that I will be open to what He wants me to do. I plan on moving forward in the direction I feel he's calling me, And I hope to keep you all updated consistently on what is going on as i start this new chapter in my life. (I planned on writing something totally related but different in this post, but I guess that will have to wait til next time. So stay tuned for part 2.)

To come in part 2: excerpts from writings, and encouragement and more in-depth explanation of, "Why Hollywood"

Friday, May 7, 2010

Favorites at the moment

Some of my favorite things right now are...

1. Terrified by Katherine Mcphee featuring Zachary Levi (From TV's Chuck)
2. Hello by Jonathan Groff and Lea Michele from Glee
3. Song of the Imperfect by Landon Rogers
4. Crash and Burn by Jesse Mccartney (rediscoverd off his most recent album)
5. Overboard by Justin Bieber
6. Wild at Heart by Gloriana

Music Artists
1. Justin Bieber
2. Jonas Brothers
3. Glee Cast

1. Leonardo DiCaprio
2. Shia Labeouf
3. Roberty Downey Jr.

1. Rachel McAdams
2. Ginnifer Goodwin
3. Sandra Bullock

TV Shows
1. Glee
3. CSI Miami
4. Grey's Anatomy
5. American Idol
6. Project Runway

1. Iron Man 2
2. Sherlock Holmes
3. The Last Song

1. Zachary Levi
2. Joe Jonas
3. Jonathan Groff

1. Graduating :)
2. Light Ice Vanilla Chai's with Cinnamon powder
3. Moving back down to Anaheim in a few weeks
4. Broadway videos and music
5. Boots
6. Sun dresses
7. Plaid :)
8. Disneyland (still)

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Long time coming...

Sorry to all my readers. It's been a while, but this is one of many more blogs over the next few days. I hope. lol. So what has been going on these last few months other than lots of school? Well not really that much but I've been learning one thing A WHOLE LOT lately (through our church small group studies of "The Gospel Centered Life" and "When Sinners Say I Do" and that is this...


Christ is a gracious merciful forgiving Savior. I deserve nothing. Yet He has given me everything.


My friend Landon is going to be in London for the next two years as a missionary. He wrote a song that's lyrics serve as a constant reminder of my sin, and God's holiness some of the lyrics go like this...

"This is the song of a sinner. to my savior....I have nothing to offer you, so empty me, that your life can show through...I deserve death, I'm guilty."

This has been my ringtone everyday as a way to start my day off remembering that I am a sinner. For if I have a little view of my sin I have a little view of God. The cross needs to be ever growing and not shrinking. Therefore, my awareness of my sin needs to be growing and constant. Yet so often we do not think about it. So I will leave this blog short and simple. I AM A SINNER. And Jesus Christ is a wonderul savior who's death ensured and paid for the sins I commit daily against an All-Glorious God. More on these studies later.