Monday, February 21, 2011


So, Here, I am posting one of the poem's/songs i wrote about a certain celeb boy who I def respected. This boy (media-wise) has been falling away and its heartbreaking to me. This poem expresses how it feels when people change, and how its silly to trust people, but also how silly it is to look up to someone sooo much. Not only silly, but it's idolatry. so hope you like it.

I told them they didn't understand
But I never planned
On you becomming what they all are
People left with ugly scars
That although different, they are still the same
Now you're just one in a long list of names
Who have let what thy want
Cancel out what you once knew to be true
Now you're all soiled and used
Lost what made you you
I can't bear to see you ruin it all
And sit back and watch you fall
The boy I used to respect
I no longer can detect

Boy i thought you had it all,
thought you'd rise above
the "hollywood life" and not fall
but you grew up

you used to sing about eternity,
and soaring above,
but now, the boy I used to love,
used to respect
is now just like all the rest

i know we all make mistakes,
but yours are scatterd all over the place
leaving the ones who respected you
left with not knowing what to do
not knowing who is real
and who is the whole deal
"i am what i am" is what you used to say
but somewhere along the way you changed.

goodbye boy, i was stupid to idolize you the way i did.
when i should've known it'd end like this.
should've known it couldn't last
and now all the time that's passed
means nothing

but now it's time for me to be the bigger one,
time will tell for the things you have done
i thought you'd be someone i could always respect
but now i'll be haunted by what's left

a boy who let the world take him down
now your voice is just a sound
of yet another one who fell apart
when you used to follow your heart
and stick to the faith you said you had
yet now seems gone, and thats sad.

i will find peace in one thing
that i still know who im serving
that i won't let the world pull me in,
and hold me down

i hope some day you'll come back around
but boy i can't look at you the same,
now you're just one in a long list of names
of people who all live life for your own pleasure
as if that's the real treasure.

know that i won't hang around,
or listen to the sound
and watch you live your life this way,
i can't think of anymore words to say.

hopefully you'll come around again someday..

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Trusting in God when all is Well

Well, I realized I never posted my Pt. 2. "Trusting God when all is well" I can't remember what I was thinking or wanted to say at that time, but I'm sure it had to do with how easy it is to trust in God when things are crazy and out of control. We all go to Him when things are hard, but how often do we when things are good. Its ironic that I should be re-reading my blog and notice that thats what I wanted to talk about in November, when I was going to talk about that tonight... so here it goes.

It's late, which is when I do my best thinking and writing I think. (Even though it's been far too long since my last post) Lately, I have been trying to be more disciplined in time management. Having so much time off work can get old pretty fast. So, I've been working out some, and doing art projects. But, mainly, I'm trying to get back into reading the Word daily. (Still not daily, but I'm getting better) Long story short, its reminded me to go to God even when all is well. I mean I'll admit I complain about little things, and I'm aware of that more than ever, but for the most part. God is providing for me. For example...

I have been stressed about finances due to my major lack of hours. Yet He has provided. whether it be through me being able to pick up shifts, or my tax refund. Etc. So he's proven he provides. :)

Then, when I was feeling unhappy at work, he provided me with the possibility of a new opportunity. I don't know how that'll turn out yet. ;)

Lastly, he's been teaching me to trust in Him fully, even though I may be uncertain. I have no reason to complain. Yet I do. Why can we never be completely satisfied. But then I remember the cross, and my sin. We are never fully satisfied because of our worldly sinful nature. So that is why trusting God even when all is Well is so important. Trusting when all is well is hard, I encourage us to remember that daily. :) I know that it's something I'm working on right now, going to him daily, even when all is well and fine. Because He is worthy of all praise and worship! He is our source of joy. A pure, gospel-centered joy that only He can give, no worldly thing can give us that."

Thats all for now, I'll try to post more about what I've been learning soon. For now, goodnight. :)