When times get hard

So. I thought I'd update you all on what's going on in my life at Disneyland, or spiritually. Everything. (I'll try to keep it short, but with me, who knows if that'll happen.) So here it is. Work's been going pretty well. It's been getting way less stressful, as I get more comfortable driving and interacting with the guests. So work, is getting very enjoyable now that I know what I'm doing more and more each day.

So, before I go into the next part, I feel that it's important for me to add a scripture that relates to what I'm going through, and what helps me when times are hard. I go to this passage often, and have even committed it to memory. So here it is...

Hebrews 12:1-2 "Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God."

So...I have had a week of weeks. You name it, it probably happened. So the first part of this week went rather splendid. I met some new people. Got to know some others, talked to home friends. And my mom came out here on Tuesday and Wednesday to see me. We went shopping and then, since I got my blue card to get guests into the park for free, we went to the park for a few hours on Wednesday. My mom left that night, and I relaxed at home. Thursday at work, I was tired (from staying up to late), but the day was pretty good nonetheless.

Then came Friday. I had to begin work at 8:45. But after getting to the parking lot, when I went to delete my month's worth of texts, my phone decided to turn off, and not turn back on. So I had to call the att people and get everything figured out. And short story, they're sending me a new phone it should be here on Tuesday.

So, thankful that I had that behind me, I came to work bright and early, at 7 am on Saturday morning. The day went well. I had G.C. Which meant, a whole day of interacting with guests in the line. No DRIVING!!! I was excited. The weather was hot, but the work was not bad. But, on my way out of the parking lot. My car got backed into. YEP. Fun. Luckily, my car isn't hurt too badly, but I can't say the same for hers. So that was stressful.

I decided to burn off some steam by going to the park with Kelsey. We waited in line for Space Mountain for 45 minutes. And then came home.

And then today. It was good. I had a great day at work, other than having to be at work at 7:30, and showing up early, because I thought I worked at 7. But today was good. I read James 2 and 3. And it was what I needed yet again. I'm hoping to practice the art of silence. Yes, it will be difficult, since I talk a lot. But I know I need to watch my tongue. So I'm praying that God can help give me the discipline I need to achieve being "slow to speak". I love you all and miss you dearly! Best wishes and happy day to you all!

Quick to forget...

Last night when I was journaling in my prayer journal, I stumbled across one that I'd written down towards the end of our nonamestan trip. I wrote it on the last Thursday we were overseas, 5 days after missing our flight. So I was ready to go home, and on top of the anxiety to be home I accidentally had deleted my photos from the entire trip. We're talking hundreds of photos here!!! (which I managed to get back thanks to my neighbor's retrevial software). But at the time I was really upset about it, anyone who was on the team could tell you that. Anyway this entry read as follows...

"Please forgive me for remaining to be selfish this week. I've had a very sour attitude about being here this week. And I'm so sorry for that. Lord, also please forgive me for valuing my posessions of my pictures over this trip. I shouldn't be worried about having recorded memories of this trip, all that should matter is this trip itself (and you)."

When I read these words last night, I couldn't believe that I'd written that; but the harder part was realizing how all throughout the trip I had been learning how much I needed to realize the aspects in my life where I idolized other things/people more than my Heavenly Father, who deserves all glory. But what hurt even more was how quickly I forgot this lesson, and returned to my old (worldly) habits and ways. I let what I didn't want to happen, happen. So this is a reminder for when one strays away from an Amazing God, who provides for us, despite our sinful natures.

What's on my heart, with a week to go...

As most of you know, I'm leaving for Anaheim in a week from today for the Disney College Program at Disneyland. Alot of you want to know and have been asking me if I'm excited, nervous, scared what not. So I thought I'd post a blog filling you all in with where I'm at emotionally, spiritually, etc as I prepare to leave.

So first, I was wondering when it'd sink in that I was leaving, and although it mostly has, I don't think it will fully until I'm on my way to L.A next Monday. I'm waiting to wake up and realize it's not real, but I know that's silly, because it is. Since I've wanted to do this program, and work for Disney for so long, I'm excited that it's only a week away. I'm not nervous or scared about the working/learning aspect of the program. However, I am nervous about the aspect of not only living hours away from home, but about my roomate situation. I dont' know who they are, I'll find out on the day I move down. Since I've always lived at home, (with the exception of one summer at hume), I've never lived with strangers, and am worried about clashing with them. I'm worried about conflicts and confrontations that may occur based on being strangers with them, and varying beliefs to mine. So for all you here at home, I would love it if you could pray about this for me. That I might be able to be a light despite whatever I encounter. That I would remember who it is I'm serving.

I ask that you pray for me as I head down there, because, as most of you know, this is where I feel God has called me to work for Him. Therefore, I know that He is in control of the situation, and I need to trust in Him. That I might have the strength to live a life with intention, like I have not done for so long. So please be praying for me as I go to Disneyland.

Here are some passages that I've been reading lately that have encouraged and helped me prepare for this...

Ephesians 5:1-2 "Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God."

Colossians 4:2-6 "Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains. Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let you conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone."

Also please pray that I find a church I can go to, and that I can find one that meets when I'm available. That if I can't find a church, I could find a group of believers to meet with or some other way of fellowship would present itself. :) I'll try to keep you all updated on what I'm learning and what God's teaching me throughout this journey he has me on. Have a splendid day! And God bless!

Happiest Place On Earth...

HERE I COME!!!


Well, on January 6 actually...there I go! I cannot wait to start working at Disneyland as part of their college Program. Where I found out today I will be working as and Entertainment Costuming Cast Member!!!



So...not only will I be working at Disneyland, but...I will be doing something in the field I want to pursue a career in later! It couldn't be better. I'm so excited, and so thankful that I get to go. Yes, the downside is the $636 I need to pay for rent for the first month, (and every month), but I don't want to worry about that too much. But I'm so excited, and cannot wait! After the time it's taken me to prepare, and apply, it's so nice to know that I'm finally going to be on my way!

So I really need to pray for patience. Because I'm gonna need it!