Saturday, May 2, 2009

Complicated...(Unsaved posted blog I found)

So you know those days where you find yourself wanting something or wishing things were different?!?! Well I've been known to have those days. And God has his ways of showing us things in the midst of those times. Recently God has been showing me that the things we wish for that we think we want, may not really be what he plans.

I've been going through some rough times. And had to do one of the hardest thing I've ever had to do. And it turns out that although I thought that talking to this person would be the hardest thing I'd ever have to do. What's followed has been way harder. Its a learning experience. And I've found that although I thought I wanted a relationship so bad. And then when a situation arises I've found myself having to deal with realizing that God works in amazing ways. (The one thing I thought I wanted), he's shown me, that what I think I want, might not be what is. I don't know how to explain it but it's like, hes had this happen, as if saying "you want a relationship? Ok, well lets see how you deal with the possibility of one?" So when it comes to the possibility of it, I've found myself having to do the hard thing and realize that not any relationship is right. Funny how God works, isn't it?