2009

Hey Everyone,



There is one more day left in 2009. So I believe its time for a blog that reflects this year.



First, however, I'd like to say, that 2009 has been pretty crazy. It's been filled with lots of trials and lots of first experiences. But thats what's made it such an amazing year. =). God has blessed me with so many amazing blessings in all forms. :). So, here is my synopsis of the 2009 year.

Blessings in the form of Praise

• January 1 - Brought in the new year with my friends in the best way possible, bringing prasie to my Heavenly Father in worship and fellowship.
• January 6th- I started the Disney College Program. Therefore, I moved out on my own to Anaheim, CA.
• Learning how to deal with my faith away from home, learning more about Christ from an individual perspective.
• Meeting whole new friends. =)
• Being a cast member at the Happiest Place on Earth. A steady job, at a place I love.
• Designing my first period show.
• Learning more about who I am as an individual and spiritually

This year had many blessings. But it had much pain as well. But the thing I've come to realize is how thankful I am for all the blessings and the trials. Because trials are blessings too. :)

Trials

• Living on my own
• Relationships
• Losing friends
• Being a cast member at the Happiest Place on Earth.
• Faith on my own.
• Finding who I am

So you know I've realized blessings and trials are usually one in the same. And I am thankful for this year. Although it was filled with many hardships, I learned so much through them, and even more about God's love and grace. So for that I am thankful. I can't wait to see what this next year brings. In closing, here is one of the biggest lessons I've learned. I've always struggled with relationships. This year was probably the biggest learning year for relationships then I've ever had. For the longest time I've wanted a relationship, or thought that I wanted a relationship so bad, but then when the opportunity arises for one, I found that the wrong relationship isn't worth it. Its hard to explain, but I fought my feelings and although I still got hurt, I learned so much. And for that I am so thankful. :) And although, I'm still learning, I feel alot better about these trials when I remember God's goodness, and His grace. But heres til an even better 2010. Peace and love to you all. And God Bless. <3

Where I Am

Hello everyone,

I know it's been a while. I hope to start getting better at blogging semi-regularly again. So today, I write about my life currently. However untheological this quote may be, it is true that Life is a climb. And it probably is the best reflection of my life in this moment.

But I must start at Thanksgiving week first. Over my time in orange country for work over Thanksgiving holiday, God showed me how much I need Him. Now, of course this isn't new news. But He showed me that I've been trusting the people and things of this world to make me happy. When in reality, nothing of this world can cause or bring happiness. For living of this world actually causes the opposite. But I was enjoying it. Sadly, but it's true. But He called me back. He made me realize that I need more discipline in my life. That I can't do anything without Him.

So fast forward to last Saturday night. We had the cross-generational Christmas party. I was still having a non-Christ-Centered view. I didn't want to go. But I went, and through the night of Christ-Centered worship and fellowship, I came to the realization that I really did need to repair my lifestyle that I've been in for a couple months.

Therefore, when I got home, I made the decision to not go on Facebook for a week. And to delete my twitter account. Although, small as they may be, I know that I spend too much time idley on them both. I follow these celebrities, to see what's going on in their lives, when I shouldnt' even care. And I need to cut back on the media intake that I let into my mind. So, this was that first step. And I realized that I waste so much time on facebook, trying to remain friends with people who may not care if I didn't initiate contact. So, I decided to take a break.

Now, It's hard to say what the long term effects will be. But I know that I need more discipline in my life. Especially if i want to serve as a believer in L.A. I can't rely on my own strengths or willpower to stay strong and focused on Christ without Relying on He who is the reason for which I have life, and for my salvation. So although it will be a long time coming, and may never happen, I pray I can continue to trust in the One who died for me. And not let this world tempt me, with its temporal treasures any longer.