My Life. Temporarily.

Joe

2011-02-21T23:56:00.000-08:00

So, Here, I am posting one of the poem's/songs i wrote about a certain celeb boy who I def respected. This boy (media-wise) has been falling away and its heartbreaking to me. This poem expresses how it feels when people change, and how its silly to trust people, but also how silly it is to look up to someone sooo much. Not only silly, but it's idolatry. so hope you like it.

I told them they didn't understand
But I never planned
On you becomming what they all are
People left with ugly scars
That although different, they are still the same
Now you're just one in a long list of names
Who have let what thy want
Cancel out what you once knew to be true
Now you're all soiled and used
Lost what made you you
I can't bear to see you ruin it all
And sit back and watch you fall
The boy I used to respect
I no longer can detect

Boy i thought you had it all,
thought you'd rise above
the "hollywood life" and not fall
but you grew up

you used to sing about eternity,
and soaring above,
but now, the boy I used to love,
used to respect
is now just like all the rest

i know we all make mistakes,
but yours are scatterd all over the place
leaving the ones who respected you
left with not knowing what to do
not knowing who is real
and who is the whole deal
"i am what i am" is what you used to say
but somewhere along the way you changed.

goodbye boy, i was stupid to idolize you the way i did.
when i should've known it'd end like this.
should've known it couldn't last
and now all the time that's passed
means nothing

but now it's time for me to be the bigger one,
time will tell for the things you have done
i thought you'd be someone i could always respect
but now i'll be haunted by what's left

a boy who let the world take him down
now your voice is just a sound
of yet another one who fell apart
when you used to follow your heart
and stick to the faith you said you had
yet now seems gone, and thats sad.

i will find peace in one thing
that i still know who im serving
that i won't let the world pull me in,
and hold me down

i hope some day you'll come back around
but boy i can't look at you the same,
now you're just one in a long list of names
of people who all live life for your own pleasure
as if that's the real treasure.

know that i won't hang around,
or listen to the sound
and watch you live your life this way,
i can't think of anymore words to say.

hopefully you'll come around again someday..

Trusting in God when all is Well

2011-02-17T01:25:00.000-08:00

Well, I realized I never posted my Pt. 2. "Trusting God when all is well" I can't remember what I was thinking or wanted to say at that time, but I'm sure it had to do with how easy it is to trust in God when things are crazy and out of control. We all go to Him when things are hard, but how often do we when things are good. Its ironic that I should be re-reading my blog and notice that thats what I wanted to talk about in November, when I was going to talk about that tonight... so here it goes.

It's late, which is when I do my best thinking and writing I think. (Even though it's been far too long since my last post) Lately, I have been trying to be more disciplined in time management. Having so much time off work can get old pretty fast. So, I've been working out some, and doing art projects. But, mainly, I'm trying to get back into reading the Word daily. (Still not daily, but I'm getting better) Long story short, its reminded me to go to God even when all is well. I mean I'll admit I complain about little things, and I'm aware of that more than ever, but for the most part. God is providing for me. For example...

I have been stressed about finances due to my major lack of hours. Yet He has provided. whether it be through me being able to pick up shifts, or my tax refund. Etc. So he's proven he provides. :)

Then, when I was feeling unhappy at work, he provided me with the possibility of a new opportunity. I don't know how that'll turn out yet. ;)

Lastly, he's been teaching me to trust in Him fully, even though I may be uncertain. I have no reason to complain. Yet I do. Why can we never be completely satisfied. But then I remember the cross, and my sin. We are never fully satisfied because of our worldly sinful nature. So that is why trusting God even when all is Well is so important. Trusting when all is well is hard, I encourage us to remember that daily. :) I know that it's something I'm working on right now, going to him daily, even when all is well and fine. Because He is worthy of all praise and worship! He is our source of joy. A pure, gospel-centered joy that only He can give, no worldly thing can give us that."

Thats all for now, I'll try to post more about what I've been learning soon. For now, goodnight. :)

Late Night Drive with God part 1: Finding Joy in the unknown

2010-11-25T12:32:00.000-08:00

So, while I was driving home on late Tuesday night, after 8 hours of working for the mouse, I had a lot of time to reflect, and pray and spend time with God. Usually I'd just blast my tunes and drive all the way through. But this trip started different. I always pray before I hit the road, for protection etc. =D But the difference with this trip, was I didn't stop praying.

I prayed for two hours of my drive, and for the rest of the trip I drove in silence for almost the whole trip. So this blog is gonna have two topics. Silence and Joy in the unknown.

First, I find that driving at night is way more preferable than driving during the day. It's more relaxing, less stressful, peaceful. There aren't as many cars, but I realized this is because you can't see everything ahead of you. Not being able to see more than a mile or less ahead of you keeps one's mind at ease. When I realized this, I came to realize that God and faith is the same way. Let me explain. Too often we worry about the future, we look too far ahead, and we get stressed out, depressed, etc. But if we live one day at a time, we'd be much more joyful. =D I think that by looking too far ahead we get weary. Whereas we should more often stop, and just think about the day at hand, or even the task at hand. For the word even says "Do not worry about your life, for each day has enough trouble of it's own." So next time the future distresses you, take a pause and just think about the uncertainty that lies ahead, but find joy in the unknown. Nothing is certain, we can plan things, but nothing is definite. Remember that as well.

Second,

Silence.

Silence is in fact golden. I touched on this in my last post, but we don't value silence enough. And when I say silence, I don't just mean not talking. True silence means, no talking, no texting, no IMing, etc. We often become consumed with being in constant communication with the world, that we don't know what true silence is. Complete silence. Just listening to God speak to you. True communication with the one and only one who is worthy of our full focus and attention. For example, I sat in complete silence, not even praying out loud for a portion of my drive. And at 2 am, I was wide awake, driving in silence, listening to the wind pound against my car. This would normally terrify me, but not this night. All was silent, I could hear the cars driving by, and just the natural sounds, and I was able to think "Lord, your power is mighty, this wind, that would normally scare me, is not tonight, because I know that it is only you. Your power, you showing us your power and might. Your awesome power. That can move mountains." So I did not tremble, but instead felt filled with His presence at 2 am, wind blowing hard against my car. It was only He who can command the wind. Why should I fear in this situation. The Lord is good and awesome. Worthy of all praise, and that's what I felt in this drive. I felt thankful for His presence. I did not feel alone, I had a drive with my Heavenly Father, and it was so good! He is sooo good! I hope you all remember that today. :-) Even if you have no other time to be in complete silence, I recommend utilizing the "no texting" law and turn off your radio, and meditate in silence. Because if you have no other time to meditate, those are the best times, because we all drive. Almost everyday. =D Happy Thanksgiving, May we all count our blessings and give praise to the Father who we are here to serve. =D

Thanksgiving

2010-11-25T00:51:00.000-08:00

It has now been thanksgiving day for 52 minutes. And I'm sitting on the end of my sister's bed typing out my Thanksgiving Blog. So here it is...

Before I go into a list of what I am thankful for, i want to say one thing. I hope we all do not forget that thankfulness is not just a "one day of the year" thing. It should be something we think of and are aware of everyday of our lives. So that is the first and most important thing I hope you get by reading this post.

So first...

I am Thankful for being able to spend Thanksgiving with my family. I have always known there would come a day when I would have to be away for Thanksgiving. It happened last year, but I always thought it wouldn't be til I have a family. However, I am so thankful that I was blessed enough to not get scheduled on this day, so was able to come home and be with my family.

which leads to my #2.

safe travels. the Lord protected me when i drove home at 11 at night last night to come home, after it had been raining. He protected me, of that I am thankful.

2b.

I prayed for the first two hours of my drive home, (what started as praying for protection, became a two hour conversation with my creator) For this I am thankful, if i had been at home, I would probably have spent it online. But He showed me how good he is. (he provides for us. he provided me a job, shelter, finances..etc) Just like He always does. I drove in silence for almost all of the four hours, and i never thought i'd enjoy the silence. but i realized how very seldomly we observe silence. even when we're not communicating, we're communicating. we Text, IM, facebook, tweet, the list is ever growing. Our generations are addicted to social networking and technology. So observing complete silence is rare, and often frowned upon. but it is a wonderful thing. I hope i can practice it more in the future.

Me and God last night for four hours, thats something that I am so thankful for. And don't want to forget, which leads to my number 3...

The biggest thing i am thankful for, is for calvary. What Jesus did for me that day on the cross, so that I, a sinner, could live. For without calvary, I would be damned to hell. But he died that I could live. I never want to forget that. It is the reason for this season, and every day of our lives. I do not want to take that lightly. I hope you all do not either.

I'm keeping this short, but soon to come. "Late Night Drive with God part 1: Finding Joy in the unknown" and "part 2: Trusting Him when all is well."

Slow to Forget

2010-11-10T02:49:00.001-08:00

Tonight is one of those nights where I have felt myself being down on myself. Struggling with self-confidence, worldliness, wanting the things of this world, like a relationship so bad that they consume me. idols always have been, and I'm sure always will be a huge trial for me, but I know being aware of sin is most important in order to have a large view of the cross, one that is always growing, and never shrinking. Tonight, after talking to a good friend, and spending time in the Word, three words came to my mind. "Slow to Forget". Now I know that this isn't what the passage says. James 1:19 says "Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger." That scripture says to be slow to anger, and I try to remember that everyday, but tonight, I want to leave you all with three words. "Slow to forget".

We need to be slow in forgetting what Christ did for us that day at Calvary. Slow to forget the awesome (the actual definition of awesome, not as in cool) weight of our sin. Slow to forget that by not having a growing awareness of our sin, we are shrinking the meaning of the cross. This has been a huge thought going in my head lately while I try to tackle my love for the things of this world. My realizing how idolatrous my heart has been lately. How people, as idols, can never satisfy, and will always disappoint. That only He who died for me can satisfy. Otherwise, without Him, I would be like the rest of the world, who doesn't know joy, and is always contemplating as to why they are unhappy. So while I struggle through my idolatry, and worldliness and selfishness I hope and pray that I could be "slow to forget" the cross. For by it, and by His blood, I am redeemed and I am not dammed to Hell, and can experience true joy because of the source of True Joy that I have in the Lord. Peace and Love to you all! Til next time.

New Journey: Part 4-Moving

2010-08-30T20:29:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone I know you all heard I moved into my own apartment. This is probably the most nerve racking and scary experience I have had yet. Yet it is also exciting. I have no idea where I'll be in three months let alone a year, so I am blessed that this apartment is a month to month, hence no lease required. =D I am technically calling this my first apartment since in the Disney College Program, I was given an apartment, and didn't have to do any looking or finding roomates. But you all know all about my Disney College Program experience. This is my post-college-trying-to-figure-life-out-and-moving-forward experiences. I will make this short and sweet since I am typing this at starbucks, since I have no internet, or electricity in my apartment yet. (Which hopefully we will have the second as of tomorrow, otherwise we will be roughing it for a few days.)

I'll take more pics later, when we're all moved in. =D My parents came and brought most of my stuff but we still need alot of stuff..and of course electricity. If anyone has anything they don't need by the way, we might be happy to take it off your hands. =D So here's the pics, as of now...from my iphone. (which is also charging here at starbucks, since I can't charge it at home yet).

my bedroom =D

the full bathroom

our kitchen (didn't come with the fridge my parents bought it =D)

living room

dining room and balcony

and our living room (gas fireplace which is proving to help without electricity for light =D)

Inception - Movie Review

2010-08-28T01:13:00.000-07:00

Ok all, it's been a while, but I want to start catching up on my movie reviews. And what better movie to start with then Inception, Christopher Nolan's latest summer blockbuster. It took me over a month to see this movie, but I finally saw it this week. There was only a late night showing at 9:50 so it was a late night.

A late night wouldn't usually mean much, but I'm sure it definitely was the reason my head hurt even more after the 2 hours and 22 minutes of crazy mind twisting. If you have not watched this yet, I will start by saying, you should see it. It is a MUST SEE. By far one of the best movies I have seen in a few years. It's up there with The Departed on my top 10 list for sure!

Ok, as for more specifics. This movie did not look good to me when I first saw the teaser. But little did I know it would become one of the biggest hits of the summer. Nolan captures your attention from the very beginning with his catchy plot line of inception (implanting an idea into someone's mind). Dicaprio nails this role, which slightly compares to that of his character in Shutter Island. If you like to dream, or dreams fascinate you, or confuse you or leave you screaming or wanting more, you will love this movie. Not only is the plotline interesting, it's obvious Nolan did his research on dreams. Even while I was paying attention to the movie, I found myself thinking of my own dream experiences while I watched the film. It deals with a man (Dicaprio) who is asked about being able to perform inception on someone. Through this you go with him on a journey through dream, and the dreams within a dream, which can greatly affect the dreamer and those who interfere. Blurring the line between reality and fantasy, to the point where dreaming becomes more real and less painful then reality.

I think part of this film's intrigue was it's originality. I don't know many if any movies that deal with the mind in the sense of dreaming. It's a brilliant and attention getting idea for a film. It is so complex, and many directors and writers would get lost in an idea of this nature. But I feel Nolan did an amazing job. It was alot of information to retain, but if one pays attention, it's easy to follow. I was glad to see that the concept did not get away from him. If you like movies like the Matrix, and Shutter Island, I'd say you would for sure like this film. I personally love the matrix, but this was better.

And it was not just Dicaprio that did an amazing job, but also his co-stars Ellen Page and Joseph Gordon Levitt. I've been following Levitt fairly consistently for a few years now. Starting with Stop Loss and then last year's (500) Days of Summer. And of course his old child star hits. He has proven especially recently how good of an actor he is. He can become a character and bring this intensity and reality to it, making it look easy, when it in fact is not. I found myself wondering more and more about Levitt's character, often more intrigued by his character then of Dicaprio's. He had this charisma as Dicaprio's partner that made it impossible to stop watching him. And Page, broke free from the comedic role of Juno, into a darker dreamscape architecture who discovers the truth behind Dicaprio's character. The things he hides from the others, and why he acts how he does. They had great chemistry and meshed amazingly in this film.

I will rap this up with a few more thoughts. If you like a good mind twist then you'll love this movie. If you're looking for a light movie, this is not one of them, you constantly have to think and pay attention. (I got a headache from thinking, but I didn't care, because it was so intriguing and interesting to me). There is little swearing (at least from what I remember) and minimal sexual content. If there was anything it was very subtle. I definitely don't see any reason why younger viewers could not watch this, unless it was for the violence, which is a bit intense at times, but still relatively subtle, I don't think there was any blood involved. Their only problem might be confusion. Plus it definitely gets some conversation going after the fact. So watch it. Let me know what you think, because I thought it was brilliant and genius in addition to well acted and well-made. Till next time...

More Adventures

2010-08-26T12:41:00.000-07:00

Well, I've been so busy lately with work and trying to find a new place to live that I haven't had much adventure time. However, I have made some time for adventures. My Next adventure after Allstar Weekend, involved Hollywood.

As most of you know, I love LA. And I have to get out of the O.C every so often, because otherwise I'd go insane. So at the beginning of the month, I planned a trip to Hollywood with my Disney friends. (Our last huge adventure with Rick, since he's going to NAU in the fall.) We all got the day off work, and were planning on hiking to the Hollywood sign. This it turns out is illegal though. So instead, we drove as far up to the sign as we could, which involved driving through the curvy Hollywood Hills. Although we got a bit lost, we kept driving up and up and through the gorgeous expensive Hollywood houses. We finally got to the sign, and I think that was the coolest thing I've seen in a while. I had seen the sign in movies, and pictures. But honestly, they don't do this justice. I'm glad I got to go. We took lots of photos when we got up there. It was very fun.

But...that was not the end of our adventure. We then headed over to Hollywood and Highland for something to eat. Had to get creative with parking etc, by driving around since there was construction going on. We however, found a spot, and headed to Johnny Rockets for lunch. After some scrumptious food, we walked over to Ameba Music Store, for some good music shopping, and by shopping I mean looking. Then we walked back, hopped in the car and headed for Millions of Milkshakes. I had the Lindsey Lohan Shake, although I'm not a fan of hers, the shake was very berry licious. =D

Then, we headed to Universal City Walk for a bit, then decided to head home via driving along the coast, since we didn't want to have to worry about traffic. Rick took us to a spot he loved along the coast, and then we drove to long beach and ate some pizza. Then we headed home, after a very long, but fun day. That was even better than I had hoped it would be =D Stay tuned for more adventure stories!

Most recent Adventures...Allstar Weekend

2010-06-30T16:24:00.000-07:00

On my Birthday, I went to see Allstar Weekend in Downtown Disney. It was my first time seeing the guys since they were signed to Hollywood Records. They were sooo good, performed 4 songs from their debut album "Suddenly" acoustically. Then hung out with some of the fans in their meet n greet. :) Good job guys, and congrats! And thanks for signing my CD. :)

Here's a flashback to when I first met Zach over a year and a half ago :)

Then it was off to the Roxy on Thursday to see them perform their Record Release Show at the Roxy in Hollywood we got there early to wait, and their were annoying girls standing next to us, but otherwise, it was fun. Here's some of the best shots. :)

Cameron <3 he liked to move...very energetic. :)
Zach. <3 <3
Inside the Roxy, we had to take a pic from above, due to how packed it was! :D
Waiting outside...the guys stopped by for a few min.
Zach. My favorite shot of the night!

And Lastly, the meet n greet. Got hugs from the guys :) Awesome night...Thanks girls for coming with me!

June 27, 2010. Recent Journey and Life

2010-06-27T16:03:00.000-07:00

So, everyone I know it's been a while. I am typing this since I am getting internet in my apartment. :) Don't worry it's legal. I think. haha. So heres an update on my life since I've moved back down to the OC. I have been only getting about 20 hours a week. Which is not fun and causing me to trust in the Lord daily for finances and time managment. I have failed to do much. but this week I got out of the apartment for two days. On Tuesday I went to an acoustic Allstar Weekend show at Downtown Disney. It was fun to see them, since I have followed them since before they were signed by Hollywood Records. They rocked it. Then I saw them again on Thursday, (that was planned months ago) at the Roxy for their Record Release Party. It was awesome! And they are really good you all should check them out! Their debut CD "suddenly" is out now. :)

On a Spiritual note...

I have found a church that I love. I have met many folks. And it's been such a blessing to find a church so quickly and getting to know some of the believers too. :) It's Sovereign Grace Orange County. They meet in a small complex in Irvine, so it's only about 20 min away from me. They also meet at 10 am, which is nice since I often work til late in the night on Saturdays. :) I feel so thankful for finding this church. It is truly a blessing. I have talked to some of the young adults, and found out about when they meet. Today, and once a month, they gather at a park after church for lunch and fellowship. So I spent a couple hours talking, (which i love to do, as most of you know) and getting to know some of the congregation. Thank you to all of you that were praying I find a group of believers to worship with and fellowship with. I am so grateful and thankful! Praise to Jesus Christ.

I'll try to keep you posted on any other adventures I go on while I am here on Earth, and in Orange County. My friends from Disney and one of the girls from church, who also works at Disney, have some ideas for other fun activities. Next one we hope to do is hike to the Hollywood Sign. I'll let you know if I do. :) Peace and Love! till next time <3

New Journey: Part 3-"Why Hollywood?"

2010-05-28T12:25:00.000-07:00

So I am finally here, sitting in the clubhouse at my new apt typing this blog that I have been wanting to write for a long time now. So many of you may be wondering, why am do I see Hollywood as my missions field? Well. To begin with, Hollywood is so Lost. Even though it may not be in the same way third world countries are it is lost regardless. The difference is that Hollywood has heard the gospel (or had the chance to in most cases) but they have chosen to not listen. They have chosen to continue living in sin, and making art that portrays this sin as "ok" or "good". After much prayer, and thought of what it means to be a missionary in Hollywood I have decided this is where the Lord is calling me. Hollywood needs passionate Christians who can shed some light on their projects. I cant find the right words, but that is the gist of it.

One thing I wanted to include in this blog was some of the encouragement and readings I read about Missions in Hollywood, from the believers who are already working their. The book that first got me started thinking about it, was "Beyond The Screen". It is written by believers who are already working in Hollywood, who wanted to encourage others who are passionate for film to come to Hollywood. They all stated one similar thing, how much Hollywood needs Christian filmmakers, not only to provide the world with a different perspective in their films, but as lights to a lost set of people, consisting of actors, designers, crews and even the world (as the work of Hollywood is shown worldwide). Not only did they say this, but they also emphasized the importance of motivation. That if I come in the hopes of fame, and publicity, my motives are wrong. This is true of course of anything, because if my motivation and my reason is due to a worldly reason, then it is not serving God. If Hollywood is my "idol" then my reasons for being there will be wrong. It is full of disappointments, but if grounded, can be used to serve the Lord. (So combine, this with what i said about being "scared" in the last blog, and you have my summary of why I want to be in Hollywood.) In addition to the scared blog however, I think being scared is good in the fact that it will remind me why I am here, and whom I am serving with my life. It would be too easy for my to fall into my comfort zone, which is my biggest fear. But I know that if I Trust Him and follow him, He will guide me through.

I will continue to read this book in the years to come, for I need to remember what it says, and be encouraged by people who are currently and preceded me in Hollywood. But the main reason for this blog was to comment and reflect on one article in particular, that I read recently, that helped greatly in this new journey in particular in my life. It was a new article, which encouraged me and reinstated in my mind why and what I want to do. It was published in Relevant Magazine, it's an interview with Zachary Levi (from television's show Chuck.) He is an outspoken Christian who is an actor. I recently discovered, he also spoke at a Christian filmmakers conference late last year. His words on dealing with frustrations in his career were

"The first advice that I would give is to really spend time in prayer to make sure that this is exactly what God wants you to be doing and not just something that you really feel like you should be doing. Many times I have come home from a really devastating audition, and I’d be really thoroughly depressed because it was a role that I really was hoping for. I realized how crucial having a walk with God was because I could turn around and say, “It didn’t happen, but obviously it wasn’t God’s will.” People who don’t have God in their lives only have themselves to blame. So they look back at the audition and they say, “I didn’t do a good enough job.” But so often it has nothing to do with how good you did in the audition; it has to do with the fact that you’re a brunette and they were looking for a blonde. So, to me, the most important factor in all of the rejection was that I had a walk with God. As far as being an actor is concerned, you have to have passion. If you’re not bringing the passion of the character into the room with you, you might as well not come into the room at all."

I think what he said so is so crucial to remember. And something I hope to not forget. So I know it encouraged me greatly. Another response in particular that caught my attention was in regards to the innocent characteristic that would be hard to maintian in Hollywood. Zachary stated "Overall, as a human beings its hard to maintain that innocence. Even now sometimes I’ll find myself in a situation, and I’ll think to myself—and not in a really negative way but—“I wonder if they know who I am.” And not like, “Don’t you know who I am?” like I’m this huge guy, but I wonder if they know if that I am this guy on this TV show, more out of curiosity than anything else. But the problem is that the curiosity, in an instant, can turn into conceitedness. To me that’s what makes putting on the full armor of God everyday so important. Even saying that right now I feel like such a hypocrite, because reading your Bible and really spending alone time in prayer with the Lord every day, I stumble in that"

It's encouraging to hear this from a believer who is already there, knowing that it is not just me that would be feeling this way, and worrying in this way. I hope I can remember this as well. And lastly, he talked about being a Christian in a very anti-Christian world. Of which he said "Absolutely. The atmosphere in Hollywood in general is very anti-conservative, very anti-Christian. The liberal segment of Hollywood, which is 80 percent of it if not more, they look at Christians as hypocrites that are false and fake. The tough part is that in many cases I can’t argue with them. My job on my set, I believe, is to first just love people and gain that trust with people where they know that I really do love them and care about their well-being, so that when they are running into problems, they will hopefully, at some point, come to me and ask me, “What is your peace all about? What is your comfort all about? Where do you get your love? Where do you get your talents? And I can turn to them and say without blinking, “Jesus Christ.” You can’t just come out there and say “Hey, I’m a Christian, and I’m gonna beat you into thinking the way that I do.” You can’t do that. It’s not about manipulation so much as it’s about getting in on someone’s life on the ground floor. So more than anything, that’s what I’m trying to do now. Just build relationships with everyone that I work with."

Lastly, this was so encouraging to me, because it made me realize that so much of ministry is through establishing relationships. And to remind me that I need to be on my guard daily, and thinking of the Lord, everyday. That it is not because of who I am, but of who Christ is. Anyway, this has turned quite long, but I hope you have gotten a better understanding of what it is the Lord has called me to do. If you have any questions, just shout them out, I'd love to talk about it more!

New Journey: Part 2-Scared

2010-05-25T23:13:00.000-07:00

Ok so I know I said yesterday that I would be explaining more of my reasons behind "Why Hollywood". But that is not what is on my mind tonight. Tonight is my last night at home. I am moving to Anaheim again tomorrow. I spent the night at my church young adult group's monthly potluck. And it was a great way to end my life in Fresno, but for the first time, it made me realize how much I will miss everyone. It made me realize what was once at the foremost of my mind, about moving to Hollywood is now a thought tonight. So what is this thought?

I am terrified.

Terrified of moving out on my own, indefinitely. Not just for an internship, not just for a job, but a life change, a relocation.
I am a graduate, who doesn't know if I will ever make it, but who knows that I need to trust in my Lord and Savior and His timing for everything.

I am terrified of having to live on my own, if that is what His plan for me is. Not like sad about it, just terrified. If that is what He wills, then I will follow and serve Him still.

I am scared.

Most of all, I am scared about temptations, of falling away from the Father I love with all I am and all I have. I will be in my comfort zone, and therefore, more dangerous than if I was not. I know it is where He wants me to be, but I'm scared of failing Him. I think it is a good thing, but I am not sure. I guess I am just more trying to Trust Him as I start this new journey in my life. I know trials will come, but I will trust in Him to guide me through them.

Next time, I will actually pst the "why hollywood" post. Cuz I have wanted to for a while now. Til next time, Katie <3

New Journey: Part 1-Moving forward

2010-05-25T00:36:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone, I have been meaning to write this blog for a while now, and being that I have only one more full day left in Fresno, I thought, what better time then this to write this blog. I have said before, what I want (what God is calling me) to do-work in Los Angeles as a Christian. Before I go on i must provide some backstory.

The idea of being a missionary in Hollywood, was always in the back of my mind, but I never really thought it was an option. But after reading the book "Behind the Screen" (which I found hidden in the shelves at Berean bookstore) this idea of working in Hollywood as a missionary became more in the front of my mind. This book, written by Christian professionals in the film/television industry, encouraged me to think about doing the same thing. Christians are often like "Hollywood, run away". Many Christians view Hollywood as the center of sin. Not that this is not true, but sin is everywhere we go, and describes everything we are: but running away is not the answer. Hollywood NEEDS people like us, who serve the LORD, to be a voice to the nation and the group of people in our world who are so apt to shun Hollywood because of its practices. It's a lost place. So as I continued reading the words these men and women wrote, about, how the need for Christians in Hollywood is important and encouraging those with the passion for film and television to come to HOllywood, I knew i needed to start praying and considering this option.

Fast forward to the Spring of 2007. I had read this book a couple times, and the opportunity to go on an overseas mission trip with my church was given to me. After much prayer and the outcome of other opportunities, I realized God had called me to go on this trip. (He shut the doors to other decisions, hence opening the missions door.) I prayed that He would show me what He wanted me to see and learn what He'd have me learn when I was overseas. I prayed that he would give me an open heart and mind to whatever He chose to happen and whatever He chose to teach me. Now, I can't go into detail of everything I learned, another blog perhaps, but in a gist, through this trip I realized that although this trip taught me alot and helped me learn about missions worldwide, this was not where the Lord was calling me. Through this trip I learned that the idea of missions in Hollywood, was where the Lord wants me to be.

Now, it is May 2010. Almost two years have passed since my trip, and I have graduated from college with a Bachelor's Degree in Theatre Arts:Design/Technology with and emhasis in Costume Design. And I am moving back to Orange County on Wednesday. I know where I am headed, I just need to remember to keep the Lord as my focus. As my reason for living. So I hope you all would pray that I can be proactive in finding a church and getting plugged in to a fellowship immediately, because that was one of the problems I had last time I lived down there. And that was not as permanent as this decision is. So finding a church will be of utter importance and priority. As for where I want to go, I have an idea, but the Lord may have a completely different will, and I pray that I will be open to what He wants me to do. I plan on moving forward in the direction I feel he's calling me, And I hope to keep you all updated consistently on what is going on as i start this new chapter in my life. (I planned on writing something totally related but different in this post, but I guess that will have to wait til next time. So stay tuned for part 2.)

To come in part 2: excerpts from writings, and encouragement and more in-depth explanation of, "Why Hollywood"

Favorites at the moment

2010-05-07T12:20:00.001-07:00

Some of my favorite things right now are...

Songs
1. Terrified by Katherine Mcphee featuring Zachary Levi (From TV's Chuck)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fw4P9pspac8
2. Hello by Jonathan Groff and Lea Michele from Glee
3. Song of the Imperfect by Landon Rogers
4. Crash and Burn by Jesse Mccartney (rediscoverd off his most recent album)
5. Overboard by Justin Bieber
6. Wild at Heart by Gloriana

Music Artists
1. Justin Bieber
2. Jonas Brothers
3. Glee Cast

Actors
1. Leonardo DiCaprio
2. Shia Labeouf
3. Roberty Downey Jr.

Actresses
1. Rachel McAdams
2. Ginnifer Goodwin
3. Sandra Bullock

TV Shows
1. Glee
2. LOST
3. CSI Miami
4. Grey's Anatomy
5. American Idol
6. Project Runway

Movies
1. Iron Man 2
2. Sherlock Holmes
3. The Last Song

Celebs
1. Zachary Levi
2. Joe Jonas
3. Jonathan Groff

Other
1. Graduating :)
2. Light Ice Vanilla Chai's with Cinnamon powder
3. Moving back down to Anaheim in a few weeks
4. Broadway videos and music
5. Boots
6. Sun dresses
7. Plaid :)
8. Disneyland (still)

Long time coming...

2010-05-04T22:41:00.001-07:00

Sorry to all my readers. It's been a while, but this is one of many more blogs over the next few days. I hope. lol. So what has been going on these last few months other than lots of school? Well not really that much but I've been learning one thing A WHOLE LOT lately (through our church small group studies of "The Gospel Centered Life" and "When Sinners Say I Do" and that is this...

I AM A SINNER.

Christ is a gracious merciful forgiving Savior. I deserve nothing. Yet He has given me everything.

I AM A SINNER

My friend Landon is going to be in London for the next two years as a missionary. He wrote a song that's lyrics serve as a constant reminder of my sin, and God's holiness some of the lyrics go like this...

"This is the song of a sinner. to my savior....I have nothing to offer you, so empty me, that your life can show through...I deserve death, I'm guilty."

This has been my ringtone everyday as a way to start my day off remembering that I am a sinner. For if I have a little view of my sin I have a little view of God. The cross needs to be ever growing and not shrinking. Therefore, my awareness of my sin needs to be growing and constant. Yet so often we do not think about it. So I will leave this blog short and simple. I AM A SINNER. And Jesus Christ is a wonderul savior who's death ensured and paid for the sins I commit daily against an All-Glorious God. More on these studies later.

JANUARY 2010

2010-02-07T22:02:00.001-08:00

Well, I realized I have neglected this blog of mine, I hope to be better about it now, especially since part of my resolution for February is to journal more. So, here is my update on the last month, as briefly as possible. First, my resolutions for the month of January were to try to read my Bible more regularly and to not listen or watch anything Disney. No Disney music. No Disney Channel. and yes, No Disneyland. However, I began the month late, on January 2, so it seemed fitting to make the month last till February 2. However, I also went to a concert on the 29th, and Disneyland on the 30(due to prior commitment) so I extended the Disney to the 4th. Some of my close friends, mentioned they could not go a month without listening to Disney music or watching Disney channel or movies. They also asked why I was doing this. I will tell you. I chose to not have any "Disney" in my life because amazingly enough, it causes me to be more emotional. It causes me to dwell on the aspects of my life, specifically singleness and the discontent I too often feel about it, that make me emotional and make it harder to be content. Disney adds drama to my life, its also an idol of mine, therefore, it is wrong to indulge myself so much with it. This is the reason I gave it up for the month. If you don't understand, I'd love to explain it further. Just ask <3

In summary...

It was easier to go without Disney than I thought, especially at first, because all I wanted was to not focus on the worldly drama and "sin" that was entangling me. The many thoughts that were not focusing on the Lord. And not having this stuff in my life, really did help my emotional state. If I thought about the drama in my life, I directed it to the Lord, instead of fueling the emotions with more to let me fall further into the emotional state of being. It got harder about week 3, because I felt I was doing better, and really wanted to watch Disney movies. etc. But, thats why its called discipline. Now, the 5th I had a Disney day, but I definitely think it's less of an idol than it was before. I'll keep you posted on this ongoing battle against idolatry and worldliness. =D But I'm so thankful to my Heavenly Savior for helping me everyday and for giving me life. for this I will continue to praise Him, through life's blessings and trials. Praise to the Lord.

Resolutions 2010

2010-01-04T19:24:00.000-08:00

So. I've found that when making resolutions it's best not to make too many cuz then one or all of them fail. So this year, I'm making monthly resolutions. Spiritual, physical, emotional you name it. That way instead of three large resolutions like more spiritual, more fit, better time management I'm picking little disciplines and goals for each month that'll hopefully help the overall big resolutions I make every year. And each month i have one thing that i meed to discipline not to do and one that I'll do with that time instead. If that makes sense? Then hopefully each month some of that discipline will transfer over to the next month. Well see. :-) here's what I have so far...

Jan-

•emotional-no Disney music/channel/land

•spiritual- more scripture/theological reading

Feb-

•physical- less soda

•spiritual- journaling

March-

•physical- no fast food

•spiritual- prayer and prayer journal

•professional- portfolio

April-

•physical-sit ups/work out

•spiritual-memorization

May-

•physical- no facebook

•spiritual- memorization

•Professional-Job/internship search

2009

2009-12-30T21:25:00.000-08:00

Hey Everyone,

There is one more day left in 2009. So I believe its time for a blog that reflects this year.

First, however, I'd like to say, that 2009 has been pretty crazy. It's been filled with lots of trials and lots of first experiences. But thats what's made it such an amazing year. =). God has blessed me with so many amazing blessings in all forms. :). So, here is my synopsis of the 2009 year.

Blessings in the form of Praise

January 1 - Brought in the new year with my friends in the best way possible, bringing prasie to my Heavenly Father in worship and fellowship.
January 6th- I started the Disney College Program. Therefore, I moved out on my own to Anaheim, CA.
Learning how to deal with my faith away from home, learning more about Christ from an individual perspective.
Meeting whole new friends. =)
Being a cast member at the Happiest Place on Earth. A steady job, at a place I love.
Designing my first period show.
Learning more about who I am as an individual and spiritually

This year had many blessings. But it had much pain as well. But the thing I've come to realize is how thankful I am for all the blessings and the trials. Because trials are blessings too. :)

Trials

Living on my own
Relationships
Losing friends
Being a cast member at the Happiest Place on Earth.
Faith on my own.
Finding who I am

So you know I've realized blessings and trials are usually one in the same. And I am thankful for this year. Although it was filled with many hardships, I learned so much through them, and even more about God's love and grace. So for that I am thankful. I can't wait to see what this next year brings. In closing, here is one of the biggest lessons I've learned. I've always struggled with relationships. This year was probably the biggest learning year for relationships then I've ever had. For the longest time I've wanted a relationship, or thought that I wanted a relationship so bad, but then when the opportunity arises for one, I found that the wrong relationship isn't worth it. Its hard to explain, but I fought my feelings and although I still got hurt, I learned so much. And for that I am so thankful. :) And although, I'm still learning, I feel alot better about these trials when I remember God's goodness, and His grace. But heres til an even better 2010. Peace and love to you all. And God Bless. <3

Where I Am

2009-12-11T14:39:00.001-08:00

Hello everyone,

I know it's been a while. I hope to start getting better at blogging semi-regularly again. So today, I write about my life currently. However untheological this quote may be, it is true that Life is a climb. And it probably is the best reflection of my life in this moment.

But I must start at Thanksgiving week first. Over my time in orange country for work over Thanksgiving holiday, God showed me how much I need Him. Now, of course this isn't new news. But He showed me that I've been trusting the people and things of this world to make me happy. When in reality, nothing of this world can cause or bring happiness. For living of this world actually causes the opposite. But I was enjoying it. Sadly, but it's true. But He called me back. He made me realize that I need more discipline in my life. That I can't do anything without Him.

So fast forward to last Saturday night. We had the cross-generational Christmas party. I was still having a non-Christ-Centered view. I didn't want to go. But I went, and through the night of Christ-Centered worship and fellowship, I came to the realization that I really did need to repair my lifestyle that I've been in for a couple months.

Therefore, when I got home, I made the decision to not go on Facebook for a week. And to delete my twitter account. Although, small as they may be, I know that I spend too much time idley on them both. I follow these celebrities, to see what's going on in their lives, when I shouldnt' even care. And I need to cut back on the media intake that I let into my mind. So, this was that first step. And I realized that I waste so much time on facebook, trying to remain friends with people who may not care if I didn't initiate contact. So, I decided to take a break.

Now, It's hard to say what the long term effects will be. But I know that I need more discipline in my life. Especially if i want to serve as a believer in L.A. I can't rely on my own strengths or willpower to stay strong and focused on Christ without Relying on He who is the reason for which I have life, and for my salvation. So although it will be a long time coming, and may never happen, I pray I can continue to trust in the One who died for me. And not let this world tempt me, with its temporal treasures any longer.

Undeserving but Thankful

2009-10-27T22:33:00.000-07:00

So in young adult group on Tuesday nights we are currently going through the book of Esther. I've been enjoying it alot. Even though we haven't yet gotten to far into the study yet, to the bulk of who Esther was and what she did. I still am enjoying this study because it helps me remember the faith that Esther had and the trust she placed in our LORD. For that is something that I am constantly struggling with.

Lately, I've been so blinded by my trials and been letting them create negativity in my life, that I've almost (though never completely) forgotten Whom it is I serve and Love. Who it is that died for me. And with going through Esther and "Living the Cross Centered Life" in small groups, this has been renewed in my thought process. It's been causing me to ask myself daily "who is God" "Who is Man?" and "Who is Christ?" I know this is something I need to remember daily. And I know that God is good, and if I remember that, these trials will be a blessing and not a curse.

The main point of this blog is to say that I was once again broken almost to the point of tears this evening when I realized how silly I've been. Who am I to deserve such mercy from God's wrath? And who am I to think that what was done at calvery was something that happened two thousand years ago? This song, "Jesus Thank You" broke me and the Lord called me back. And all I can say is just that... Jesus Thank You. Thank you.

Words and music by Pat Sczebel

As recorded on Worship God LiveLyrics

The mystery of the cross I cannot comprehend

The agonies of Calvary

You the perfect Holy One,

crushed Your Son

Who drank the bitter cup reserved for me

Your blood has washed away my sin

Jesus, thank You

The Father’s wrath completely satisfied

Jesus, thank You

Once Your enemy, now seated at Your table

Jesus, thank You

By Your perfect sacrifice

I’ve been brought near

Your enemy

You’ve made Your friend

Pouring out the riches of Your glorious grace

Your mercy and Your kindness know no end

Lover of my soul

I want to live for You

2009-09-13T15:43:00.001-07:00

I wrote this song. To help me get across some of what I've been feeling. Hope you like it. :D

I'm done waiting for you tonight
To text me back and say goodnight
Cuz I know, things just aren't the same
Yes I see now that the rain,
Has overshadowed our love
Drowned out the sun.
But I know it will rise again
Love will ascend

~Chorus~
So I'll wait for that day
Where the waves wash away
The feelings of sadness
That came when you went away.
Bringing with them a love renewed
Something lasting. Something true.
So for that I will wait.
No longer will I stay in this state.
~
lost too much time in tears of you,
And no longer will I be blue.
But please oh please listen here
Know that I still hold you near
deep within my heart
Even though apart
But I will rise above the clouds
And scream aloud

~chorus~

So I get up off the floor
Dry thee tears
From my eyes
And Say goodbye to my fears

Rinse the makeup off my face
I'm going to feel beautiful today.
Will not let you hold me down Anymore.
Ill feel contentment.
Time to soar.

Life...

2009-09-13T15:31:00.001-07:00

So, recently I've lost a really good friend. I know I need to move on, but it's hard because I don't take losing friends well at all. This person left (well stopped talking to me abrubtly) and I was really hurt by it. He didn't even give a reason. I know I need to be okay with that. I know that God has a plan for everything, but it definetly still hurts. Especially learning that someone you thought you knew, you didn't know at all. I forgive this person, but I'm still hurting. I miss this person regardless, I just need to have the strength to move on. Anyway, that's how I've been feeling lately.

Friend, if you ever read this, I miss you and care for you deeply. I hope that the Lord blesses you and hope to maybe see you again someday. I thank the Lord for you, no matter how much pain you've caused. Please forgive me if I overstepped or did anything wrong. <3

2009-09-08T23:31:00.001-07:00

'Unashamed' by starfield

I have not much
To offer You.
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth.

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose words secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend.
Your mercy sets me free.

And I know I am weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of your mercy
I stand here unashamed.

I can explain
The kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heaven's heights
And greet me face to face.

Here I am at your feet
In my brokenness complete.

Long time coming..

2009-08-26T18:26:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone (ok, the very few people who read this) I'm sorry it's been so long. but having a crappy computer was the main reason. So here it is, one of many blogs I'm going to post in the next few days(hopefully). Here it goes...

First, I'm back in Fresno now. (Yes, it is sad, but good.) It's good to be home, but hard to be away from L.A. I spent 8 months on my own; in a large city, working an average of 40 hours per a week at the Happiest Place on Earth. And after about 6 months, I realized how accustomed I had become to living on my own. I got used to it, persay. So I think thats why leaving was hard. Because, although I was home again, home has changed, my life has changed. My friends have changed. Now, I'm not saying this is a bad thing. It's a blessing in fact; however, it makes the transition harder, because I'm having to get used to change again.

However, the good thing about being home, is that I'm able to be more involved in the church again. If you had talked to me, prior to leaving to L.A., you'd have heard me say how I felt the LORD calling me to L.A. for missions. However, you also would have heard me say how I was more scared to go to L.A. then I was for going overseas. (I realized this even after going overseas last summer) This was because, if you remember, I felt that although many populations of the Earth are unreached with the gospel, Hollywood is different because they know, or have most likely heard the gospel, but they just don't care. So when one is going to L.A. They are going somewhere where falling away, falling in to sin is at higher risk. I know it's easy for me to say that dying for my faith seems easier. And I know if I were in that situation, I would probably change my view. But let me tell you this...

Going overseas, we as Americans are leaving are comfort zones. And although we may be traveling to a country where spreading the gospel is illegal, and can hence be a death sentence, when you go on a trip out there, you feel God's presence. You're there to spread the gospel. And in a way, despite the risk, it's easier to draw nearer to God. At least in my opinion. However, Hollywood is not that way. Hollywood is in my comfort zone, so it's easy to be consumed in your own life, and not look to God as much as you should. (I know this from experience, I'm not proud of it, but it's the truth.) In L.A. you can lose control easy if you're not careful. Now, my faith is strong enough to resist certain sins, what I mean to say is, I've lived with a certain form of morals for 21 years, so some aspects of my lifestyle and choices aren't going to change. But I've seen how I can still be led astray. Being worldly and not Godly. These are the reasons I was more scared to go to L.A. then I am of going overseas. Why am I telling you this?

I failed.

I wasn't the child that I should have been. Far from it even. I wasn't the light I could have been. Yes, when it came to moral issues I stood my ground. But in order to be a witness for the LORD in L.A. the 'usual' doesn't cut it. I'll admit I was too scared to fully express the faith I have. Sharing with the co-workers I had. And I know I didn't care about them (well about their souls) enough. I failed. Not just in in being a light, but in my own walk with the Creator of all. If I had been in the Word more, and gone to church more regularly, I would not have gotten into the same situations and would have been able to deal better. But I let the sin and drama consume me, and take over my life. I failed. But I realized, that although I failed, I became much stronger too. He called me back. I realized how even when I'm struggling, He is there. The LORD died for me, and even when I fall, He is there to break me, and humble me. I grew because I had to live my faith out almost completely alone (meaning without other believers, because none are alone who have Christ) , for the first time in my life, made me realize more about my faith, and the God I love and want to serve with my life. Although I wasn't ever truly alone, not being in the Word, I felt more alone then ever. (Again, not something I am proud of) That's something I never want to take lightly again.

So...that is why me being home is a good thing. I can get a better grip on my faith, and come near to He who died for me...In preparation to go back 'out into the world and preach the good news'. Because if I am not looking to the One whom I serve with my life, and I'm not serving him with my life, it's all in vain. So, in short, I still feel called to Hollywood after I graduate. But that's not where I'm meant to be at this moment. In the book "God Called A Girl" by Shannon Kubiak, that I recently read she stated,

"Sometimes he prevents us from being where we want to be so we can end up where we are supposed to be."

I WANT to be in L.A. But at this point in my life, that is not where I am supposed to be. I NEED to be right here. In my journal I wrote this,

"He knows I was led astray. Therefore, where I want to be probably isn't where I'm supposed to be...now. I need to find comfort in knowing that in my confusion God is doing work. In the midst of the fog He is working".

I don't think it can be any clearer. So instead of worrying and being sad about being home, I need to realize the PURPOSE for why I am. And why I need to be. And how I'm supposed to live - praising Him who died for me at calvary. I need to

'lay aside every weight, and sin which so easily entangles, and run with endurance, the race that is set before me, fixing my eyes on HIm, the Author and perfector of my faith, who for the JOY set before him, endured the cross, scorning the shame, and is seated at the right hand of God."

I pray that I can fall on my knees in praise to Him. And never forget His work at calvary.

Complicated...(Unsaved posted blog I found)

2009-05-02T19:10:00.000-07:00

So you know those days where you find yourself wanting something or wishing things were different?!?! Well I've been known to have those days. And God has his ways of showing us things in the midst of those times. Recently God has been showing me that the things we wish for that we think we want, may not really be what he plans.

I've been going through some rough times. And had to do one of the hardest thing I've ever had to do. And it turns out that although I thought that talking to this person would be the hardest thing I'd ever have to do. What's followed has been way harder. Its a learning experience. And I've found that although I thought I wanted a relationship so bad. And then when a situation arises I've found myself having to deal with realizing that God works in amazing ways. (The one thing I thought I wanted), he's shown me, that what I think I want, might not be what is. I don't know how to explain it but it's like, hes had this happen, as if saying "you want a relationship? Ok, well lets see how you deal with the possibility of one?" So when it comes to the possibility of it, I've found myself having to do the hard thing and realize that not any relationship is right. Funny how God works, isn't it?

Growing up...

2009-04-16T20:08:00.000-07:00

So, I think lately I've been growing up a lot. And at the same time it's become so apparent how much more growing up I have to do. Last night I came to the realization that God is so good!!! Not that this is new news at all, but...it's always good to remember. I am sooo small and God is soo Big!!! It's overwhelming but in a good way.

Now for the trials portion. Last night I had a small meltdown. I realized how much I've fallen away since I've been here in LA. Maybe fallen away isn't the right words. But I interact with my friends here like I do with the ones I've known all my life. The ones who know who I really am in regards to my faith. Whereas these other friends just see who I am now. I know I need to work on this more. Work on being a light. Work on being a light for Jesus in this place. My usual means of doing this just can't cut it anymore. I've realized I may have to end some friendships, which is not something I've ever felt I had to do. I need to do more. So...yeah that's that.

Today started better. I was happy with just who Christ is. And work was easier, etc. But things can change so much. They can be great then turn to gray so fast. I don't understand it. I don't like it, but thats life. And when these things happen all I can do is turn to Him. And on my hands and knees I fall, into his arms. And I know it'll be okay, and even if its not, well that's okay too. Some things never fail. God is good, He is sovereign. He's in control. He is so many unchanging and unfailing things. So I lean upon Him when all else turns to black. If only I remembered that everyday. :) So here I am today. Am I happy, no. Am I sad, yes. But I still have hope in my Heavenly Father. That He is there, and He loves me. And everything...EVERYTHING is according to His plan for me. Even if I don't like it, or have problems with his timing. Which I struggle with constantly. But I guess that's one reason its called faith right? Faith in someone so holy, who's timing is perfect and who is in complete control, when it seems things are spiraling out of control. :) Thank you Lord for your amazing Grace, and mercy towards me, a sinner. And for loving me so fully, enough to send your son for me. Thank you Father, Spirit, Jesus...

DCP: Housing

2009-03-10T20:39:00.000-07:00

I know you all want to know what my apartment looks like. So here's a blog all about my housing. So, I think it's pretty sweet. They're nice, fully furnished but cozy. Some would say they're pricey, but I don't think it's too bad. So here are the photos...

Here's mine and Bethany's room. (There are now two Jonas Brothers posters up.)

Here's our living room! (Which is still a work in progress, but now we have an Enchanted poster and a Disneyland Map on the walls)

This is mine and Bethany's bathroom. (And whoever may visit our apartment)

Our wonderful kitchen. We have lots of counter space, it's wonderful. (Well in the rare occasion when its not messy)

The other side of our kitchen. With our electric stove and microwave.

So, that's it. I know it's plain, and kind of boring, but I still like it. :)

Jonas Brothers: The 3D Concert Experience Premiere!

2009-02-25T20:10:00.001-08:00

The El Capitan Theatre!
So...I went to my first Hollywood movie premiere!!! Finally!!! It was a long day. Me and Ana Paula got to the El Capitan theatre on Hollywood Boulevard at about 11:30. And to our dissappointment, there were already a ton of fans there. But no worries, we found spots in front of the "Guest check in" sign. Which we later would find out was where the celebs would be dropped off. (Well some of them :( )

We then got to wait for 5.5 hours till celebs started to arrive. However, it was still pretty fun! We actually saw Justin Long driving in front of us, stopped at the stop light! He waved to us!!!

Then, the moment came. 5:00 came around. It was finally time for the celebs to start arriving. Most of them got dropped off at the purple carpet. So we didn't see any of the big artists. :( However, we got to see Allyson Stoner. I got her autograph! We also saw Megan from Camp Rock, Chelsea Staub, Honor Society, Jordan Pruitt, Jason Dolly, and Brenda Song (she was a late arrival).

Megan from Camp Rock
Brenda Song
Honor Society

Allyson Stoner

Now, for the moment of truth. The Jonas Brothers arrived quite early. They drove past us. And Kevin rolled down the window and waved to us!!! I saw Nick next to him. But then they had moved on. They stopped at the purple carpet, and then Kevin stood up with the door open and waved to the fans!!! That was all we saw them. (Other than for two seconds when they stepped off the carpet for some reason. And we didn't know for sure if it was them) But that was the ONLY time I saw Joe, and I didn't even get to see his face! Just his back.. :( (But I'd know that hair anywhere!!!)

I know its hard to see, but Joe's there, and Kevin too (look for the hair)

Then that was it.

We were about to leave, but when we were leaving the new and undiscovered band Allstar was hanging out. We got to meet them, take some pics and get their autographs. That was cool! They were hott! Well Zach anyway...lol

Zach from Allstar!!! Hes hott!

So, although it turned out to be a disappointment, it was still fun. I'm here for 6 more months, so I'm sure they'll be other opportunites to meet them! At least I hope. Fingers crossed!!!

My Top 5

2009-02-18T19:43:00.000-08:00

So, my two best friends both made top 5 lists...so here's my top 5 male celebrities!!!! (It was much easier then I thought it'd be.)

1. Joseph Adam Jonas

Yes, call me the stereotypical girl all you want. That I'm like every single teenage girl in America. I don't care. I love him. Why? He sings, dances, plays guitar, dresses amazing, is a Christian, wears a purity ring, has AMAZING hair and many other amazing things! Who cares if he breaks up with Taylor Swift over the telephone?!? Plus I love feeling like I'm in Jr. High again sometimes. :) And I love that in a world encompassed by sex, he and his brothers bring clean, wholesome music and lifestyles to the youth of the world!!! :)

Keep rockin' it Joe!!!

2. Shia Labeouf

Well, you all find this to be no surprise I'm sure. But I am proud to say I've been a fan of Shia since he played the nerdy class clown Lewis in "Even Stevens", and the Mentally Retarded Eddie in "Tru Confessions", as well as Stanley Yelnats in the movie "Holes"Then you all fell in love with him later. But I have loved him and seen his potential since way before he was in Transformers and Disturbia. I know he'll continue to have me watching him in the future. Because he, in my opinion, is an amazing actor!!! And has made the transition from 'child star' to adult actor very well!

3. Robert Pattinson
Yep, I know, me and every girl in the world...again. I don't care. I mean three words: Dazzling, Vampire, British. He intrigues me with his British accent, and gorgeous hair. (even if he cut it all off). I think he's going to prove a successful career in Hollywood. Even if he doesn't, I'll watch Twilight so many times you wouldn't think it was possible!!! :) And if I get tired of that, I'll watch him die (beautifully) in Harry Potter over and over again! :)

4. Leonardo Dicaprio
I love Leo. Yes, I was one of those teeny-boppers who fell in love with him during Growing Pains. But he is no longer "just a pretty face". Leo is and always will be one of my favorite actors of all time! He picks amazing films from the Departed to Titanic (hey you know you love that movie) and does well in every role he plays. He is brilliant at dying over and over, in almost all the movies he's in, and does so looking as gorgeous as ever. But his movies always make me cry, and are sooo powerful. I love Leo!

5. Kirk Cameron

I didn't only fall in love with Leo on Growing Pains, but also Kirk Cameron. But since Growing Pains I have learned to love and respect him even more!!! He rose above the downfall that so many child stars fell into, and found the One who makes all things new, Jesus Christ!!! And his work that he does with The Way of The Master inspires me, and encourages me in so many ways! And I will always love his films. They always have a message to go with them, and inspire. Thanks Kirk!

Disney days with Home friends

2009-02-09T19:47:00.000-08:00

So, I've been blessed over the course of the month to go to Disneyland many times. (Probably like 10 times, not kidding). But about two weeks into my time hear, I got to go to the park with Linell for her birthday! We got to act like little kids all day! It was stupendous! We went on Dumbo, and all the little kid rides!!! (Which might I ad are not 'kid' rides!!!) They are dark!!! It was not very busy that day, so we got to go on tons of rides. We even left the park at like 3 because we were content with how many rides we'd been on, and since it was free, we didn't care!

Then on Friday, I was able to go to Disneyland with the Micus! It was so fun, and such a blessing to have them in town. It made me happy to have something of home here! The day began kind of wet, because it was poaring down rain. But the rain ceased for most of the afternoon, only coming down again right before we left the park. But the weather made for a slow day at the park, with very short lines!!! We were there for a long time, the kids had quite a bit of energy. But I'm so glad I got to go with them and help them get the whole family in for a reasonable price!!! :) Heres some pics from that Amazing Day!

The longest line of the day was to meet the princesses!!!

It's tough to be a bug!!

It was Nay Nay's Birthday! (She turned 3) Toy Story Mania

When times get hard

2009-02-01T20:40:00.000-08:00

So. I thought I'd update you all on what's going on in my life at Disneyland, or spiritually. Everything. (I'll try to keep it short, but with me, who knows if that'll happen.) So here it is. Work's been going pretty well. It's been getting way less stressful, as I get more comfortable driving and interacting with the guests. So work, is getting very enjoyable now that I know what I'm doing more and more each day.

So, before I go into the next part, I feel that it's important for me to add a scripture that relates to what I'm going through, and what helps me when times are hard. I go to this passage often, and have even committed it to memory. So here it is...

Hebrews 12:1-2 "Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God."

So...I have had a week of weeks. You name it, it probably happened. So the first part of this week went rather splendid. I met some new people. Got to know some others, talked to home friends. And my mom came out here on Tuesday and Wednesday to see me. We went shopping and then, since I got my blue card to get guests into the park for free, we went to the park for a few hours on Wednesday. My mom left that night, and I relaxed at home. Thursday at work, I was tired (from staying up to late), but the day was pretty good nonetheless.

Then came Friday. I had to begin work at 8:45. But after getting to the parking lot, when I went to delete my month's worth of texts, my phone decided to turn off, and not turn back on. So I had to call the att people and get everything figured out. And short story, they're sending me a new phone it should be here on Tuesday.

So, thankful that I had that behind me, I came to work bright and early, at 7 am on Saturday morning. The day went well. I had G.C. Which meant, a whole day of interacting with guests in the line. No DRIVING!!! I was excited. The weather was hot, but the work was not bad. But, on my way out of the parking lot. My car got backed into. YEP. Fun. Luckily, my car isn't hurt too badly, but I can't say the same for hers. So that was stressful.

I decided to burn off some steam by going to the park with Kelsey. We waited in line for Space Mountain for 45 minutes. And then came home.

And then today. It was good. I had a great day at work, other than having to be at work at 7:30, and showing up early, because I thought I worked at 7. But today was good. I read James 2 and 3. And it was what I needed yet again. I'm hoping to practice the art of silence. Yes, it will be difficult, since I talk a lot. But I know I need to watch my tongue. So I'm praying that God can help give me the discipline I need to achieve being "slow to speak". I love you all and miss you dearly! Best wishes and happy day to you all!

Kids are wonderful

2009-01-24T22:40:00.000-08:00

First of all, if I didn't think kids were wonderful, I would have problems working at Disneyland. Because, well...there's lots of kids. They are all sooo cute. I could eat them up. All the little girls dressed up in their disney princess dresses for their birthday (or just for fun), and their tennis shoes for walking all day. And the little boys who are dressed like pirates, heck even the parents and big sibling dress in their disney apparel. It's grand, it's things like this that help me realize I really do work at the happiest place on Earth!!!

Secondly, I had to talk about my last day in Fresno. We all went and ate White Chili at the Micu's house, and I got to hang out with the kids one last time. Oh how I love Sarah, Josh, Jonathan, Rebecca, Hannah, Naomi and Jael. And oh how I miss them. I mean how can you not love them? Here's nay-nay in her pretty princess dress, which I had to take a picture of, due to the fact that I was headed to Disneyland. So here it is.

Heres another pic from that wonderful last day...

By Faith...

2009-01-18T13:08:00.000-08:00

So, today I was reading Hebrews 11. And wow, I find it amazing how one always seems to read a passage that one needs to read at that specific moment. Now don't think that I mean to say that every passage isn't good to read, because they are. But I love how what one reads on a given day always relates directly to what one is struggling with, or going through on that given day. And today, I needed to read Hebrews 11.

So like I said, I was reading Hebrews 11, which talks all about how all these men and women did specific things "by faith". How "by faith" Noah when warned about things not yet seen built an ark in holy fear, to save his family. The chapter continues on talking about Abraham and Sarah, Issac, Jacob, Joseph, Moses and even Rahab.

Well, this chapter got me to thinking about how little I do "by faith" or, how much I take my faith for granted. Here in America as a believer, it's so easy to just blend in. Living in a way that doesn't cross the line of immorality, but coming as close to crossing that line as possible. Here we can be a Christian without living a life of intention, and without having to face persecution. Yet all over the world other believers face daily persecution for their faith, yet they serve the Lord despite those circumstances. So this passage made me realize how I need to live "by faith" more. That I need to sieze the opportunities and freedoms I have more. My prayer is that I can live a life intentional and "by faith". Instead of taking what I have for granted everyday in fear of persecution.

DCP-Nemo:Solo Day #1:God help me!

2009-01-16T15:44:00.000-08:00

Well, so yesterday I had my first solo day. It started off pretty well. I jumped in the sub to drive my required 3 cycles. And it went great! I stayed on profile (speed) the entire ride, and parked almost perfectly. Then, I worked on hatches for a few minutes then it was time for my break.

Then after break it all went bad. I got back on the sub for another 3 cycles. But, it was on a sub I hadn't driven before, and well it turns out it's one of the fast ones. So I was a bit faster then I was supposed to be all throughout the ride, and I overshot or undershot my parking everytime.

Then the day finally ended, after 3 more bad cycles. But, then I realized I'd lost my ID card for the park, which I need to get into work. And my debit card. It wasn't a good day.

But I was thankful later, because I had gone to deposit my paycheck early that day, but couldn't because I forgot my debit card. And I'd transfered money to my savings from my checking for rent. So, I didn't have much on my card anyway! I had to thank the Lord for that! He was looking over the situation all along. :) He is so good! So despite my bad day, I tried not to forget that He is good, and that I need to trust him fully!!! And despite my bad day, he drew me closer to Him. I praise Him for that!

DCP Week #1: Training and Day Number 1

2009-01-16T15:05:00.000-08:00

So everyone, I thought I'd post an update on my Disney Adventure. I've been meaning to, but haven't gotten around to it. Sorry. So here it is...

So I started training last Friday. This first day was all my Guest Interaction training. Here I learned how to put the SERVICE model into effect, and got to pass out the special Celebrating buttons available for cast members to pass out to guests. I also did some pin trading.

Day 1 - started at 6 am in the morning on Saturday. This was my first day of training on Ride Operations. I learned the ins and outs of the attraction. I got to see the backstage stuff that makes the ride what it is. I learned the many different roles that make up the Finding Nemo team.

Day 2- Driving. Yep I had to learn how to drive the submarines! Yikes! This was so scary!!! And I had to work at 5 am today, so I was a little on the tired side. I was so nervous. But it's not too hard. I spent a lot of the day driving, and learned how to work the hatches. (The entrance and exits for the subs). It was fun, but a long day. However, since I had to go into work at 5 am, I got off at 1:30. And since it was a weekend day, the park closed at 11. So me and my friend Katie went to the park for a couple hours, and went on like 4 rides! It was very nice to finally be able to go to the park!!!

Day 3- More Driving. Yep I drove most of the day today, and had to park (to unload and load) all by myself. It's quite difficult. But my guests still seemed to enjoy the show. Which is all good!

Day 4- This was the day of my P.A (Performance Assessment). So I spent 6 hours with my trainer Millie reviewing everything I learned the past 3 days. The last two hours I had my assessment with another trainer. It went pretty good. I PASSED!!! But parking was still a bit bad. But I am now an official Nemo Ride Operator!! Yay!

Wednesday- I was off! So I went to Disneyland with the roomies! We got a late start, because there was no hurry since we can go for free, and anytime we want. We took a moment to take this picture

So I love this picture!!! From left to right here's how it goes! Me, Mickey, Cassidy(Utah doing Retail), Kelsie(Arizona doing Food and Beverage), Pluto, and Bethany(Hawaii doing Restaurant Busser). We had fun, and yay for no lines!!! So that was Wednesday! Here's a few more of those pictures!

Toy Story Mania! The Best ride ever!!!

Hollywood Backlot in California Adventure

I'm now an official Disneyland Cast Member!!!!

2009-01-08T19:03:00.000-08:00

So...today was my first official (paid) day as a Disneyland Resort Cast Member. But before I go into what happened today, I should probably update you all on the recent happenings. So let's rewind to yesterday....

Yesterday was our first day of orientation stuff, we were really only at the Education Center for about 3 hours. So we spent the rest of the day back here at our apartment. Later in the day, me and my roomate Cassidy decided to go get some much needed shopping done, so we went to Target and bought a few things, where I then lost my phone. Luckily...the guy who found it answered my phone when we called it, and was still in Target, so I got my phone back. Then we went and a bought a few quick things at Vons. While we were in Vons, we got a phonecall from casting saying we needed to come to the office that "we were on the list". So on top of driving in anaheim for my first time, losing my phone, and having to buy new shoes (that I only wore today, and are too small for my feet), I was on "the list". Well long story short...I was switched from doing Entertainment Costuming, to doing Attractions. It was a bit of a bummer, but I'm still excited and happy to be here, so it's all good!

So fast forward back to today...Today was our first day as a Cast Member for Disneyland Resort! EEE!!! Which it was refreshing to know we were getting paid today, since we had to sit in a auditorium from roughly 8-4 going through presentations (orientation stuff). But we did get a tour of the park. That was pretty fun (and exciting since I hadn't been inside Disneyland for two years!!!) So our day ended with us getting our name tags (btw if you come, mine will say Christine and not Katie) which is going to take some serious getting used to! haha. So we then decided we wanted to go to Disneyland for the first time for the rest of the day. However, I would soon learn that I wouldn't be able to enter the park until I get my actual ID (I was one out of a small group of people, who didn't get mine). This was a bit of a bummer, but I know I have time to go again! haha...So I had to take the bus home, since my roomies got in. It was a little sad, but it's okay, I'll go soon enough! But I have training tomorrow, where I'll get my costume and stuff, so I'll update you soon on how training goes! But I have training before dawn this weekend, so that should be fun. Haha

Love you all! Talk to you soon!

Goodbyes the hardest word...

2009-01-04T23:14:00.000-08:00

I keep hoping that as the years pass, and the older I get, that goodbyes will get easier. But everytime it comes time to say goodbye again, it's just as hard if not harder than it was before. And it hurts to know that not only is it goodbye, but that every year older we get, the more goodbyes will come. We all grow apart, and we all have to move on with our lives. So every goodbye is hard. If this doesn't make any sense, it's probably because of the tears that are flowing from my eyes as I type this. Tonight is one of the nights I'm talking about. I'm excited about moving to L.A., yet sad to leave home and my friends. However, I know I can find hope in Heaven when there will be no more goodbyes, and even if there were it wouldn't matter, because I'll be with my Savior, praising him forever!

So you know how I've been waiting for it to sink in that I'm leaving, well, unfotunately now it has. Now that I've said my goodbyes to the people I love the most, and my bags are all packed, it's finally hit that I'm leaving...tomorrow, for 8 months. Who knows what will happen while I'm gone? So much could happen! To all of my friends, I love you so much, and I'll miss you terribly! It breaks my heart to have to say these words, but I want you all to know them. I'll keep in touch! And I'll be posting updates here hopefully weekly, or as much as possible!!! Peace and Love

God Bless
~Katie~

Sweetly Broken

2009-01-04T14:39:00.000-08:00

Today in young adult group at church, we sang the song "Sweetly Broken" by Jeremy Riddle. This song is so good, and the words are so good, the message and the glory of the cross! So I wanted to share this song with you all!

To the cross I look,

to the cross I cling

Of it's suffering I do drink

Of it's work I do sing

For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed

Showed that God is love

And God is just

Chorus:At the cross You beckon me

You draw me gently to my knees, and I am

Lost for words, so lost in love,

I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

What a priceless gift, undeserved life

Have I been given

Through Christ crucified

You’ve called me out of death

You’ve called me into life

And I was under Your wrath

Now through the cross I’m reconciled

Chorus:

In awe of the cross I must confess

How wondrous Your redeeming love and

How great is Your faithfulness(2x’s)

Chorus:

Quick to forget...

2009-01-03T14:10:00.000-08:00

Last night when I was journaling in my prayer journal, I stumbled across one that I'd written down towards the end of our nonamestan trip. I wrote it on the last Thursday we were overseas, 5 days after missing our flight. So I was ready to go home, and on top of the anxiety to be home I accidentally had deleted my photos from the entire trip. We're talking hundreds of photos here!!! (which I managed to get back thanks to my neighbor's retrevial software). But at the time I was really upset about it, anyone who was on the team could tell you that. Anyway this entry read as follows...

"Please forgive me for remaining to be selfish this week. I've had a very sour attitude about being here this week. And I'm so sorry for that. Lord, also please forgive me for valuing my posessions of my pictures over this trip. I shouldn't be worried about having recorded memories of this trip, all that should matter is this trip itself (and you)."

When I read these words last night, I couldn't believe that I'd written that; but the harder part was realizing how all throughout the trip I had been learning how much I needed to realize the aspects in my life where I idolized other things/people more than my Heavenly Father, who deserves all glory. But what hurt even more was how quickly I forgot this lesson, and returned to my old (worldly) habits and ways. I let what I didn't want to happen, happen. So this is a reminder for when one strays away from an Amazing God, who provides for us, despite our sinful natures.

What's on my heart, with a week to go...

2008-12-29T10:59:00.000-08:00

As most of you know, I'm leaving for Anaheim in a week from today for the Disney College Program at Disneyland. Alot of you want to know and have been asking me if I'm excited, nervous, scared what not. So I thought I'd post a blog filling you all in with where I'm at emotionally, spiritually, etc as I prepare to leave.

So first, I was wondering when it'd sink in that I was leaving, and although it mostly has, I don't think it will fully until I'm on my way to L.A next Monday. I'm waiting to wake up and realize it's not real, but I know that's silly, because it is. Since I've wanted to do this program, and work for Disney for so long, I'm excited that it's only a week away. I'm not nervous or scared about the working/learning aspect of the program. However, I am nervous about the aspect of not only living hours away from home, but about my roomate situation. I dont' know who they are, I'll find out on the day I move down. Since I've always lived at home, (with the exception of one summer at hume), I've never lived with strangers, and am worried about clashing with them. I'm worried about conflicts and confrontations that may occur based on being strangers with them, and varying beliefs to mine. So for all you here at home, I would love it if you could pray about this for me. That I might be able to be a light despite whatever I encounter. That I would remember who it is I'm serving.

I ask that you pray for me as I head down there, because, as most of you know, this is where I feel God has called me to work for Him. Therefore, I know that He is in control of the situation, and I need to trust in Him. That I might have the strength to live a life with intention, like I have not done for so long. So please be praying for me as I go to Disneyland.

Here are some passages that I've been reading lately that have encouraged and helped me prepare for this...

Ephesians 5:1-2 "Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God."

Colossians 4:2-6 "Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains. Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let you conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone."

Also please pray that I find a church I can go to, and that I can find one that meets when I'm available. That if I can't find a church, I could find a group of believers to meet with or some other way of fellowship would present itself. :) I'll try to keep you all updated on what I'm learning and what God's teaching me throughout this journey he has me on. Have a splendid day! And God bless!

High School Musical 3: The Review

2008-12-27T21:53:00.000-08:00

So, I know some of you read reviews on other blogs, but I want to start posting mine here. I really think I could be a critic, (even though I love most movies), I can talk about them as an artform and form of entertainment as well....So here's my HSM 3 ReviewFirst I must say that HSM 3 is probably not going to be a hit with one who is not a fan of the other movies. This being due in part because it follows the same pattern as the previous two movies do; the high school romance, the non realistic portrayal of the modern high school, and the big song and dance numbers. However, those who love film musicals will love this film I believe. It continues where the last film ended, with the East High Wildcat gangs' Senior year. It follows the activities and worries of the average high school senior, in a cheerful and lightweight manner. Now, those who have seen the prior two films will notice that the numbers are bigger and better and are not as few and far between in the third installment. It is obvious that this is a feature film vs. a television movie, in regards to this fact. The bigger dance and music numbers are likely due to the actors gain of experience, and no doubt to a larger budget. Any person would find themselves captivated by wanting to dance in their seats, and would be smiling through the entire film. Despite it's cheesy parts, and bad acting in moments (mostly due to Vanessa or lower cast members), it has an innocent and cheerful tone throughout the movie. Is it predictable? Yes, but the film and director Kenny Ortega, did a marvelous job at taking risks, and going from the small screens at home, to the large screens of the theaters. The crew also did well with catering to an adult audience who takes their young children to see the film. It resembles many other moments in musical film history, making it enjoyable to various ages; from young to old, and anything between. And unlike most threequels, this one is the best of the three movies, a perfect end to a much loved and popular series of films. :)

The holidays

2008-12-13T19:40:00.001-08:00

Are right around the corner! So I thought'd I'd post about them. Since I didn't post a thanksgiving blog, here's a list of just a few of the things I'm thankful for...

First, I'm thankful for all my friends are family who have made my life so special. And I'll miss you all when I'm gone this next semester!
Second, I'm thankful for my group of friends at school, you all make life so much easier on a girl who would otherwise be "just a girl who is obsessed with theatre and media" a nerd as some may call it, so I'm glad you all share my passions!

Third, I'm thankful for the blessings the Lord has given me this year. A great internship, financial support for both my trip overseas, and life in general. Thank you Lord!

Finally but not leastly, (The last shall be first) For the reason of the season, my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Yes it is now when we celebrate his birth, but we also need to remember his death at this time of year. So I'm thankful for the fact that He died for me. Without his death, I couldn't recieve the gift of life. His birth would have met nothing, but because he died, I can live and hope. It is Him on who I give all my praise, and worship this season and everyday to come. May we not forget!

Here are a few more pictures of my holiday's so far.

Girl's night at the Micus.

This was my gingerbread house!

I got a dress form!!!

2008-11-29T12:39:00.000-08:00

I got my aunt's old dress form!!! Finally! I'm so excited to start building clothes on it! I had it for a whole hour, when I decided to put clothes on it. So I put a dress that the strap is broken on, onto the form, and decided to see what I could do to change the dress up a bit. I found some extra trim, and this is what I came up with!!! I'm so excited about it!

Twilight at Midnight

2008-11-24T21:16:00.000-08:00

Yes, it's time for a Twilight blog, I know you're all sick of hearing about it, but I don't care. Yes, I'm proud to say that I'm a nerd. I saw it at midnight. Me and Tiff even made shirts, cause you can't go to a midnight showing without dressing up in some way. We arrived at Edwards at 3 p.m. to see many people already forming in the 14 lines that would be showing the movie later that night. We got very good spots in line. I'd say like 10-15 people in front of us. Then...we waited for 7 hours (we became friends with the girl next to us who had no one else with her). After the three of us split a pizza and my sister and Dillon brought us blankets, we waited till 10:00 when they let us in. Then two hours later, the movie finally started!! It was worth the wait.

So...here's my review...

I thought it was quite splendid. I was pleasently surprised. I mean I went in with low expectations, so I wouldn't be too disappointed when it lacked and strayed away from the book. Books, after all are always better then their respective movies. However...this movie stayed very true to the book, yes the plot had a few added moments, and a few scenes were changed slightly. But not many were. The dialogue held very true to the book in that much of the dialogue came directly from the book.

As for the movie itself, yes it had a low budget of $37 Million, so parts of it were kind of bad, obviously. Parts of it were cheesy...but I mean the books cheesy!!! So did you really expect the movie to not have cheesy moments. The acting was alright. The supporting characters known as Bellas friends, were quite terrible actors. However, I do believe that Edwards family was quite splendid. (Plus they were casted brilliantly.) Overall, I quite enjoyed the movie, it made me quite happy, and I mean it's cute, they could've developed the relationship of Bella and Edward more, but I mean they do have 3 movies left to do that!!! So I'll get over it.

P.S. It was better the second time I saw it! And for me that's important, because if a movie is worse the second time, than it can't be considered as good. I prefer second times, because the hype and anticipation is gone. And if a movie is better the second time, that means it's good because it can intrest you even though you've already seen it.

T-49 Days!!!

2008-11-18T15:20:00.000-08:00

Till I start work at Disneyland! ^ I'm so excited and literally get more and more impatient every day that passes!!! I know it's going to be crazy but whatever, I'll manage. And I just can't believe that God is blessing me with this opportunity!!! I'm so thankful to be on my way to achieving my dreams!!! It makes me feel old, but in a good way! I feel like a grown up!!! (I know I'm still not though).

So I'm so excited that in 49 days (less than 2 months) I'll be working for the company that I've wanted to work for for years! I still can't believe it!

Dreams can come true!!!

10 years (Decade) Ago...

2008-11-16T22:05:00.001-08:00

So, I was watching the SERIES finale of TRL tonight on T.V. It's been running for 10 years!!! It was bittersweet. Old moments, new moments, but one thing remained most clear. How much time has past in the past decade...so in honor of a ending I thought I'd blog about what was happening 10 years ago. It's shocking to believe!

But, what's crazy is looking back at what was happening 10 years ago. So here's a somewhat brief list...

1. I was 10 years old!

2. Titanic hit theatres, and became the highest grossing film to date. (Yes it's that old)

Wins best picture as long as 10 more Oscars

3. 2 words....Boy bands.

BSB....yes the song "I want It That Way" was released 10 years ago! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AgH-jWCny9U
N'SYNC's....first album N'SYNC hit stores!!! "All I ever Wanted" and "Tearin' Up My Heart" were on this album!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAGjzd5vi_E

4. We wore what?

I'm pretty sure I had this exact poster on my wall believe it or not...yes yes, even a Christian girl like me, had posters of Britney on my wall!

5. T.R.L Premieres in Time Square New York. Helping out the careers of many artists!

Finding anything else, would require research, and let's face it, is that necessary? But there was an article in the Fresno Bee not too long ago about things from ten years ago returning. So here's a list of some modern things.

1. Boy Bands

BSB still together, one of the only Original boy bands left. But has only 4 members instead of 5. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GxsoGheXnZ4
Jonas Brothers-One of the biggest bands currently.

2. I am 20

3. Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio return to the big screen together in their film "Revolutionary Road"

4. Twilight

5. T.R.L ends!!! *tear* Thanks for the Memories! (How'd you like that Fallout Boy reference?) huh?

Financial Dilemma

2008-11-15T14:00:00.000-08:00

I love disney!!! I know that's not a surprise to you all though. But with High School Musical 3 and the Jonas Brothers and the internship. I'm on a disney high right now! I literally cannot wait!!! It's 52 days away, but it's going by so slowly! So I've been filling my time with disney music, and (taylor swift) even though she's not disney, i love her! But that's the extent of what's going on in my life.

The second great thing is...I've been having problems with finances. (I have no money basically) I've been living off getting gas and food, with no extras basically for a while now. But God totally answered my prayers because I stopped by the financial aid office at school on Thursday, to ask what would happen with my scholarship money for next semester. Well, the nice lady checked on if there was a hold which said they had to distribute the money in partial each semester (Half one, half the other). There wasn't, so I'm going to be getting all of next semesters money, within the next few weeks! Which means I have money to live off of til I leave in January! It's such an answer to prayer!

Praise the Lord, for he provides!

Happiest Place On Earth...

2008-10-24T14:30:00.000-07:00

HERE I COME!!!

Well, on January 6 actually...there I go! I cannot wait to start working at Disneyland as part of their college Program. Where I found out today I will be working as and Entertainment Costuming Cast Member!!!

So...not only will I be working at Disneyland, but...I will be doing something in the field I want to pursue a career in later! It couldn't be better. I'm so excited, and so thankful that I get to go. Yes, the downside is the $636 I need to pay for rent for the first month, (and every month), but I don't want to worry about that too much. But I'm so excited, and cannot wait! After the time it's taken me to prepare, and apply, it's so nice to know that I'm finally going to be on my way!

So I really need to pray for patience. Because I'm gonna need it!

Happiest day of my life...

2008-10-23T16:21:00.000-07:00

Okay, well I didn't get married...and I know that's supposed to be the happiest day of one's life...but my day is the happiest day of my life....so far...

First, High School Musical 3 comes out tomorrow...but I got tickets to see the premiere at midnight...

Then...I found out I've been accpeted to the Disney College Program...Probably the best news of the day...

So...now I can celebrate by enjoying the premiere tonight...and I have no school tomorrow so I can celebrate more!!!

But I can't go through the day without thanking the Lord. He is my provider, and sustainer, and giver of life. I could not and would not be doing this without him. So all my thanks and praise goes to him!!! Thank you Father!

2008-10-13T13:42:00.000-07:00

Hey I thought I'd post a note here so that all of you who are following my journey toward doing the Disney College Program would know the latest news...the not very fun news.

Late Monday night, as many of you may know, I received an e-mail stating that they had yet to recieve my application. They also said I needed to send it as soon as possible, that within a week they'd assume I'm no longer interested. At this point it'd been three weeks since I submitted it online and had my interview.

So... I got a little frustrated that they waited 3 weeks to inform me of that matter. So, I emailed them back telling them I'd re-send it to them. However, they also said that they had received my role checklist. The wierd and frustrating thing about that is, I faxed that along with my application. It was the last two pages after my application. So what happened to my application? I don't know.

Anyway...I had a time of major frustration and a very tear-filled hour, after I found out. It was all these different aspects together that just broke me down. Then I read some in my Bible, and thanks to Isaiah 40 and Matthew 6, I was able to calm down, and go to bed around 1 am.

So........fast forward a day, and I skipped polisci to figure out the whole resending my app thing. So I went to the school and I got it re-faxed. Now, all I could do was wait to hear if they got it.

...Fast forward till Thursday. I called them to ask if they'd recieved it and they said there was no record yet. But it takes 48 hours to confirm or whatever. So if I didn't hear withing 48 hours to recall them. So, I re called them like 2 hours later. And well same thing. They both said give it a week and if you don't hear anything call us back or resend it. I had to inform them that I only had a week to re-send it in. So they told me to resend it. Now don't get me wrong, I can do that, and I will. But I think it's a bit ridiculous that they wouldn't have gotten it either time. I sent it twice! And well yea...that's it for now. I'm calling again tomorrow and asking to talk to the casting director or equivalent directly to make sure I will still be in the pool of applicants, but I have not been able to send it to them successfully. I hope I get somewhere!!!!

This is beyond frustrating. I'm trying really hard to just Trust in God and his timing, but it's very hard. And my frustration with Disney is not helping me, or them, and it's not being used to glorify God, so I know I need to work on not being anxious, frustrated etc...but it's gonna take time!!!Anyway, I wanted yall to have the most current update with my disney experience in trying to achieve my goals one step at a time....oh patience....patience, patience, God give me patience!!! Plus I know that if it's meant to be, it'll happen!!! I just need to remember Christ along the way...

Patience...

2008-10-02T15:39:00.000-07:00

It's so hard to have to be patient sometimes. For example, right now I'm anxious to hear whether I got into the Disney College Program or not...and I have to be patient and wait for God's timing, and depending on the results being happy with what his will is. I'm just learning how much more I need to continually rely on him for everything in my life.

And another thing that is trying my patience is finding a job. I'm so frustrated with trying to get a job...that I have a bad day and I get upset. It's easy to be frustrated, and angry. But I know that is not the right attitude, and that it won't make the situation any better. So I'm working on that as well. So right now, with not only being frustrated with jobhunting, but I'm anxious too, it's not a fun place to be. But I'm working on it....

Other than that I can't complain. My life is sooo joyful right now! Probably better than it's been in most my life. For that I praise the Lord everyday for. He is so great! And his Grace is so amazing! I deserve nothing that he provides, yet he still does! Oh My God! How wonderful He is!

waiting on God's timing...

2008-08-26T15:09:00.001-07:00

This week in the "next steps" on our communication cards at church it asked what is one way we can pray for God's timing in your life. It took all of about two seconds for me to answer this question. I put, Pray for my patience of God's timing for my future life/career goals. Lately, I've been struggling with having patience about the years to come. If it's not one thing it's another. It could be impatient to get out of school, and start my career (which is the main way) or it could be impatient about personal relationships. It could be any of a multiple of things. So, imagine my reaction to this question. It was exactly what I needed to think about, and have been working on since I read it. Isn't it amazing how God reveals things?!? It never ceases to amaze me!

So, this week and the weeks to come I'm trying to work on contentment, and patience. Both would coincide with my needing prayer for patience in God's timing. If I can be content, then patience will come. So I'm working on it. And I am once again amazed at the amazingness of God and his will for my life, that I don't even know about!!!

Favorites

2008-08-19T15:06:00.000-07:00

These are a few of my favorite things...

Designer: Vera Wang
Shoe Designers: Steve Madden!! and Converse Shoes ( I LOVE his shoes!!! I own like 4 pairs of them, all bought discount at Nordstroms Rack!!!; and I own like 5 pairs of Converse shoes!)
Books: Harry Potter and Twilight Series as well as the O'Malley Series, and Christie Miller, and The Bible of course!
Comedy Show: FRIENDS
Dramatic Show: CSI and CSI Miami
Reality/competionShow: American Idol
Action/Adventure Show: LOST
Disney Show: Hannah Montana or Even Stevens
Guilty Pleasure Show: Degrassi: The Next Generation
Reality Show: Project Runway
Comedy Movie: Juno
Chick Flick: I really love She's the Man, but I don't really have a favorite
Action Flick: Transformers
Musical: hard one, but probably Newsies
Musicians (celebs): The Jonas Brothers, particularly Joe Jonas
Pop/Rock Band: The Jonas Brothers
Christian Artist: Relient K
Solo Artist: Carrie Underwood
Country Artist: Rascal Flatts
Actor: Shia Labeouf: close second is Leonardo DiCaprio
Actress: Amanda Bynes (she's so cute and funny)
Athletes: Michael Phelps (hands down) and I kinda like Ryan Sheckler
Winter Sport: Snowboarding
Summer Sport: Swimming
Favorite some would say Non-Sport: Dance
Favorite Team Sport: Gymnastics
Clothing Store: Forever 21
Everything Store: Target
Musical Show: Les Miserables
Myspace vs. Facebook: Facebook
Fast Food Resturant: In-N-Out
Resturaunt: Yoshinos or Sweet Tomatoes
Jamba Juice vs. Starbucks: Jamba Juice
Location: L.A.
Theme Park: Disneyland!!!

Other things I love

Awards shows (I'm addicted)
Movies (in general)
AIM
Hume Lake
itunes/ipod
Apple Movie Trailers
Wet-2-Dry Flat Iron

Twilight vs. Harry Potter?

2008-08-15T21:35:00.000-07:00

Well obviously there is much hype about Twilight, and Harry Potter has had much of that as well in the past years. Well I must say they are both entirely wonderful in their individual ways and in similair ways!!! I am currently reading the last book in the Twilight series, and I must say I think that Breaking Dawn is quite wonderful. I know many people said they didn't like it, but I love it!!! I'm on team Edward for sure! But Twilight and Edward gives you false hopes for love because Edward is so perfect; but I'm willing to deal with that for the sake of the book. Hehe.

That said, Harry Potter is absolutely amazing as well, but there's some tragic news about the sixth movie! I'm sooo sad, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince is now not coming out in theaters till...get this...July of 2009!!!! It was supposed to come out in November! AHHH Now Twilight coming out is even more great!!! Because that, I could not stand! ahh!

History in the Making

2008-08-13T17:10:00.000-07:00

Every Generation has those life-changing or otherwise historical moments that will go down in history. Whether its in sports, or society, or some other reason, these moments define the time we live in. I was just reflecting on the ones that I have already experienced in my lifetime; even at the young age of twenty. So I thought I'd list them here, and give some thoughts on them too.

Tragedies

September 11, 2001- (I was in like 8th grade, but remember it like yesterday.)

Various school shootings. Virginia Tech, Columbine... :(

Entertainment

Harry Potter Series

Titanic and Dark Knight etc...

Apple-ipods, iphones, etc...

Sports Victories

Boston Red Sox

Fresno State wins College World Series!!! (Go Dogs!!!)

U.S.A wins 4X100 freestyle relay in the 2008 Olympics!!!

and of course....Michael Phelps!!! (need I say more? )

It's so wierd to think about how these events will be remembered for many many years, and I lived to experience them. It's crazy! I can't even wait to see what the rest of my years brings!??!

Olympic domination!!!

2008-08-11T14:40:00.000-07:00

Michael Phelps is awesome! I love watching him race! I don't even understand how it's even possible to swim that fast!!! But yeah, last nights 4X100 meter freestyle relay was insane! wow! I loved it! I'm so glad I got to watch that!!! Even if it wasn't on till 11:30 at night! Anyway go Michael Phelps! 2 golds down, 6 to go! I know he can do it!!!

Three Words....

2008-08-06T23:49:00.000-07:00

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3!!!!

Yep, not only do I LOVE the Jonas Brothers (especially Joe); but I love HSM!!! it's amazing. It may be cheezy but I mean most musicals are. How often do you get to randomly burst into song and dance? So, yes...it's true...I love these movies. The first two are great but I'm still so excited for the new one that hits THEATERS in October! seriously can't wait! It's gonna be great! Here's a sneak peak!! AHHH

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifK4b6wzGPA&feature=related

FACT #2-The Jonas Brothers Rock!!!

2008-08-05T14:58:00.000-07:00

Yes, it's true! I love the Jonas Brothers! And as hard as I try to not like this amazing brothersome known as Kevin, Joe and Nick, (although I don't really try at all) I continue to fail. So what is it I love about them...one cannot count the ways...but...here are a few.

Why I like the Jonas Brothers

They can sing
They can play the guitar
They do back flips on stage!
They write all their own music!
They sing clean "wholesome" music, in a not very wholesome time.
They are really cute.
They wear purity rings
They are CHRISTIANS!!!
Their father/manager is a pastor!
They aren't from California
They sing
They love their fans
"Hello Beautiful"...enough said.
They have great hair!
They give 10% of their earnings to charity
They founded the "Change for the Children" Foundation!

So, maybe I'm a little obsessed with them, and I know I shouldn't be. But if you're a friend of mine, you better get used to it. Because I don't think my liking them is going to change anytime soon. If you're interested in them, you should go listen to them! I would recommend their song "Burnin' Up"! It's great!

Twilight and Eagle Eye, and a little Shia...

2008-08-04T16:52:00.000-07:00

So, I know what all you are thinking, Katie has another blog? Well, it's mainly because, I want to use my other blog strictly for my design stuff, you know a portfolio. So, hence I thought I should create another blog for all my other crap/nonsense...or perhaps treasures? I guess it's all in the perspective that you see it in. What I consider nonsense, or what I may even consider treasures may be taken completely different to any of you....so...Enjoy, or perhaps leave, if it doesn't interest you. Either way, enjoy...lol.

The first thing I want to post is two movie trailers of movies I cannot wait to see...like you have no idea, I'm so excited. And just fyi, if shia's in it, I'll probably post it on here, because I love his movies, and yea he's awesome. So enjoy!!!

Twilight movie

teaser trailer #1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTiaKvXqOtQ

teaser trailer #2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tQk8pKnnVY

Eagle Eye and shia!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4irce-kalhk